Thursday 9/1/22
6: 15am I woke up with a terrific headache and an overall crappy feeling. I swear by whatever is holy I hate this room. My living space is so small I’m living in a prison cell. I am getting fairly anxious from livying in small small quarters. I hate the way I feel right now. I hate everything right now!
What makes it worse is my roommate. He has a shit fit whenever I play my audible books. Last night I had to leave my room and find a space where I could listen to my book. I think this is pretty pathetic . I can’t turn on my stuff, that is no more !ouder than his Tv, in my own room. But I still took my tablet and left. I do my best to be accommodating. I just want to get along and read my books.
So I don’t like my room. I don’t like my roommate. I feel like road kill. Anxiety is getting out of control because my cell is so small I cannot breathe. I told the aide who got me up I need to get a new room. She said she will talk to the nurse about it. I’m going to talk to the social worker, again. I can’t take much more of this shit
I had a good night. The aide put me to bed at 11:30. I slept good. Arthritis pain was minimal and I had few incontinence episodes. Best part was I had no nightmares and the aides let me sleep until six. I should feel on top of the world this morning. Instead I feel the world is on top of me.
8:01tapm I had a sweet roll, scrambled eggs and hot oatmeal cereal for breakfast. Then I had two cups of hot coffee and a glass of lemonade. I feel better somewhat. Breakfast and coffee lifted my spirits. But I won’t feel like myself until I have a new room.
12:16pm This has been one screwed up morning but my wish had been granted. I am in a new room! I’m in the process of moving. Rather they are moving me but I’m out of that hell hole.
I was very depressed this morning. I slept in my wheelchair after they moved me. They woke me up when they served drinks. I had two coffees and a lemonade. The drinks perked me up and put me in a better mood
I have my old roommate Michael. He isn’t so bad after all. At least he is quiet most often the time and he doesn’t have a shit fit whenever I make a noise. I’d rather I have him than that old sob in 175.At least he never cared when I played my audible boo
They will be serving lunch pretty soon. I’m having roast beef, great beans, creamed potatoes a dinner roll and jello. This sounds good and I cannot wait. I’m hungry
Chocolatechip already had her SSI check. She is going to the bank and Walmart this afternoon. Her sister Elaine is coming up from Wheeling. They will do their monthly shopping then go to Eat n Park I wish I was going with them
It looks like they are moving Michael. T hope I have a room to myself for awhile. I hope so because I don’t do roommates very well.
6:54pm This has been a crazy day. It looks like I have a roommate after all. There was this guy parked outside my door. He kept looking and looking at me. Then he came into my room. It freaked me out at first. He says his name was Gary or Greg. I can’t hear so I couldn’t understand him I said I had to do something important Greg or Gary left and I shut the door.
An aide comes in to change me a little bit later. I told her about this guy staring at me. She said he is my roommate I didn’t believe her at first. They had already moved out one guy. It turns out this person really is my roommate.
I didn’t see him move in. I didn’t know what was going on I felt bad because I shut him mouth of his own room. But he looked so feeble and confused. I thought he had the wrong room. They should have told me so it wasn’t entirely my fault.
I spent the entire afternoon trying to defuse.
I was still nervous and agitated. I tried to read my book but didn’t get very far. Things were kind of crazy today and I had a hard time concentrating.
My SSI check came today. I used that to pay my Capital One Card, all $112.00 I bought a book, The 6:20 Man by David Baldacci. Then I renewed my subscription to the New York Times for $19.99 I’m not buying anymore books until I pay the nursing home $583.00.
I had a good supper. I had chicken cacciatore, rice and vegetable soup. I had some kind of chocolate cake for desert. Then I had my two cups of coffee and a fruit punch.
Then I called Chocolatechip. She was gone for most of the day. Like I said she was out with her sister Elaine. She had a successful shopping trip to Walmart and Goodwill She got her backup airbed with the a built in pump. She also got some food items. They went to Goodwill where she bought a few things. Then they had a good lunch at Eat n Park.
We talk on the phone for a long time. She talked about her financial situation. She said it looks pretty good for September. She left just enough money y in the bank for Comcast, SCI and YouTube. Chocolatechip pays those bills with a credit r card then pays off the credit card. She said she even has $5 to send me so I can buy snacks and candy. We talked until seven then we said our goodbyes for the day.
I still like this new room even if it I do have a roommate. it looks a lot bigger at least I have more room. Roommate seems to be gone most of the day so I have the place to myself. This means I can play my audible books without hassle.