Thursday 8/3/23

5:52a.m. I had a lousy night thanks to no care. I lied in urine for almost twelve hours. This was from supper until they got me out of bed at 4:45p.m. I’m really pissed but there is nothing I can do but suck it up. 

This didn’t stop me from reading.i read a lot yesterday. I read a couple hours. finished Chapter 6 last night. In all I read about sixty pages yesterday. So I had an enjoyable evening despite l aying pin urine. 

In was talking to Chococolatechip this morning. She slept st night and was in good spirits. Chococolatechip said she heard yelling out in the hall last night but nobody knocked on her door.She reported that the Abilify shot is starting to work. Chococolatechip said se is a lot less anxious and is not worrying about trivial matters I am happy that she is feeling better today.

She also talked about CMP. It seems they do not like to make changes in meds. Last time Chococolatechip needed changes she ended up in the hospital. That was not a good experience. This time they changed the meds and didn’t have to go to Trinity.We were both thankful for that.

We talked for a long time. We also talked about different tv channels. she gets with her package. Chococolatechip likes this one channel called TV Land. They show old tv shows like Gunsmoke and others from the 50s, 60s and 70s. We both like the oldies better than today’s shit.We had a very nice talk that made me feel better. But she had to take morning meds so we said our goodbyes.

I’m in pretty good spirits myself. I could use a cup of coffee but that will have to wait.They will be serving coffee and breakfast at seven. I can wait that long.

7:50a.m I just had two omelettes and oatmeal for breakfast Also had a glass of oj and coffee. But for some reason I feel very depressed. I don’t understand why I’m depressed Sometimes getting old and being in a nursing home is reason enough. I guess  nobody can be happy all the time. 

I talked with Chococolatechip. She got the number for Michelle the omnubusman. I’m going to give her a call today. This Michelle person is with legal aid.She is supposed to help me with my problems with the nursing home. I talked with her before about lack of care. Things get better for awhile then they slack.Sometimex I think there is nothing I can do. But I’ll keep on trying. 

I will bounce back from this slump. I need to get lost in my book for a while. Then going to the Coffee Social always lifts my spirits. I will survive.

2:49p.m. I ended up being bummed out all morning. I just felt very tired and depressed. But I  made it to the Coffee Social. I tried to read my book but couldn’t get into it. I felt half dead while I was there. I managed to down two cups of coffee and two glasses of chocolate milk. Then they served beef tips with gravy on noodles, carrots, a dinner roll and a cup of pears for dessert. Coffee and a good meal made me feel better.

I made my way back to my room by myself. I called Chocolatschip  but she was getting ready for procedure to the hospital. I just sat in my chair for awhile then I had a few visitors. One was from my psych doctor. She asked a few questions about my dy. I told her I was very depressed today. I didn’t get any card at all last night. This always makes me depressed and anxious. I also said I didn’t x?eep because I was lying in urine all night. I was ok now but I felt really bad. Then she asked if I was hearing or seeing anything. I said no that ended our interview.

I talked with  Chococolatechip after that on  Messenger. She talked with Stacy. Stacy told her Gordon the exterminator will come to assess her apartment for bed bugs. Chococolatechip said Stacy wasn’t all that friendly. It seemed to Chococolatechip the Housing Authority was blaming her for getting bb. She was a bit worried they might try to evict her.

I said they have no grounds to evict. Chococolatechip keeps her apartment spotless. I also said you pass inspection everytime and you keep yourself clean. I also said the bb were coming from across the hall. Chococolatechip said they will never admit to that. 

After talking to Chococolatechip I picked up my book The Constitution Today Timeless Lessons for Our Era by Akhil Reed Amar. I’m on Chapter 8. These groups of essays deal with the impeachment of Bill Clinton I’m almost finished with this book. I have three more chapters to go. I hope to be finished with this by Sunday. 

6:39p.m. I had two BBQ pork sandwiches and s cup of fruit for supper. It was ok. At least I had something to eat. The food is pretty good for the most part. It’s the care that sucks. Speaking of which, I probably will be lying in urine all night again. I’ve been peeing like crazy during supper.But they don’t answer the call light on the nightshift i

I called Chocolatechip after I ate. We talked about various subjects. We talked until her bedtime at 6:$0 then said our goodbyes for the night.

This was a very bad day. It got s little better when I was reading this afternoon. I was lost in Constitutional Law. I was reading about the impeachment of Clinton I had a hard time following the author but I still found him interesting Imgoing back to that book and read as much as I can.

9 03p.m. Today is ending on a better note. I read for two hours tonight. I’m almost  finished with chapter 8. I’d like to go on but I’m getting very sleepy. I read about fifty page total. I can even retain and understand some of the material.this made me feel good. Also. this marks the 29 straight days of reading. I am very proud of myself.

I’ve been up for sixteen hours. I’m very tired. But I’m obsessed with that damned bool. I want to finish that chapter So I’ll try and stay up a little bit longer

 

 

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