Thursday 8/15/24
7:14a.m. I’m above the dirt . I had a terrible nightmare last night. In my dream my father died. I got in a very bad argument with my mother. She wouldn’t let me discuss the funeral arrangements. She didn’t want me around her. This made me mad. I started calling her all kinds of nasty names. I said you just want to have complete control over me. It really got heated when she yelled back calling me names. This was when the aide woke me up to change my briefs.
I had other dreams as well. I was in the living room of my parents house. My old landlord was talking to my mother. There was dirt all over the floor. I was afraid of being evicted for not passing inspection. I was got a broom and dust pan then swept up the
I just had a breakfast of toast and scrambled eggs. It wasn’t all that great. The eggs w cold old. I ate them anyway. The coffee was nice and hot. I also had a glass of oj. This is more than most people have. I should consider myself lucky.
I also talked with Chocolatechip. She was getting ready for an appointment with her case manager. They are going to Walmart this morning for groceries and househtold items. She is going to buy ingredients to make her famous chili. Good I said. That will feed you for four or five days. I also said don’t.give any to Eddie the Mooch.
I’m getting my Amazon package today. But I’m a bit worried because delivery time is 10:00p.m. The offices are closed then. I hope nothing happens like it gets stolen. My kind of like I will get screwed. I’ll try not to worry.
I got today’s menu already. They are serving chicken and cheese quesadilla, rice, fiesta corn and jello for lunch. For dinner it is Sicilian roast beef, green beans, creamed potatoes, a dinner roll and tuxedo cheesecake yummy.
The day is starting out fairly good . I’m going to do my best and keep a positive attitude. I’m getting tired of bitching all the time. Life is too short.
10:22a.m. I’m dressed and in my wheelchair. The aides were nice and did a good job. It makes a big difference when you have good care. I just called Chocolatechip and left a message. She is probably doing laundry. I’m having a good day.
12:56p.m. I made my way to the Fiesta Room for lunch. It was delicious and I ate it all without getting sick. I brought my Kindle with me. I read a couple chapters in A Calamity of Souls by David Baldacci. I had a good time down there today. I wasn’t bothered by anyone talking about me. I went back to my.room after I ate and called Chocolatechip.
Chocolatechip did a lot of shopping today. She went to the old M&B store to get cigars. She had to take the long route home. She is going to make chili tomorrow. I was talking about my Amazon package. I said it will be delivered between 3-6. I hope there will be no screw ups and I can get it working I said. We talked for a few minutes then she had to make some calls.
I haven’t read The New York Times yet. I want to concentrate on my book A Calamity of Souls by David Baldacci. I missed reading the book the last couple nights. I will read the paper sometime tonight. I looked at the headlines. There are a lot of good stories to read today.
2:19p.m. I’ve been reading A Calamity of Souls by David Baldacci. The story is getting very good. John Robert Lee decides to represent a Black man, Jerome Washington for murdering Leslie and Anne Randolph. Jack is facing a lot of trouble from the White community. Everyone is convinced Jerome killed the elderly couple. I kind of think he will be convicted. But it is too soon to tell.
I’m also obsessing over that package. I keep tracking it. Now they are saying it will be delivered between 4-6. I hope I get it. But I have a bad feeling somewhat will go wrong. I’m trying very hard to concentrate on my book. But this is looking in the back of my mind. You watch I’ll get all upset and anxiety will go through the roof. I only have one more hour to wait but it will seem like an eternity.
6:29p.m. I didn’t get the Amazon package. It was delivered shortly after 5:00p.m. The office was closed. Color me paranoid but I’m thinking I will not get it. Either somebody else picked it up or staff stole it. I am hoping still I will get it tomorrow.
I ate my supper. It was ok. I’m not a fan of Sicilian roast beef. It is a bit too spicy for my taste. Still, I’m glad I had supper. I’m very lucky to have three meals a day.
I talked for a long time with Chocolatechip before I ate. She said she fixed Eddie the Mooch a grilled cheese sandwich. He brought her the ingredients. She also talked about a problem with Healthways. Betty Jo said she can’t have two case managers one from Healthways and one from Wheeling. So she had to make some calls.i talked about not getting my package. Based on last experience I don’t blame you she said. We had a nice talk until they served a late supper.
I intend to read The New York Times tonight. I never let a day pass where I don’t read that that paper. Besides reading will keep me from obsessing about that damned package. Life is too short for that shit.
8:09p.m. I’ve been reading the paper tonight. I think I read about four articles. Now I’m torn between two loves. Should I finish the paper? Should I go back to my book ? Oh decisions decisions. I just can’t make up my mind. I think one more article.