Thursday 5/2/24
10:06a.m. I’m off to another shitty day in the nursing home. My morning wasn’t great. I woke up for good at 7:00. I refused my breakfast tray because my stomach was bothering me. I peed myself and had a bm. I had to lay in my filth for three hours. The aides finially came to change my briefs, dress me and get me in my wheelchair.
I feel very tired because I didn’t sleep very well. I had weird dreams that kept me waking up. Fortunately, I do not remember them except for having a feeling of unease. No wonder I’m very cranky and bitchy. I can’t sleep then get shitty care plus physical problems.
1:01p.m. I’m doing better thanks to reading therapy. I read until lunchtime getting halfway through Chapter 8. Lunch was ok. They served an egg salad sandwich and pasta salad. I had a cup of vanilla ice cream for dessert. The best part was a nice cup of hot coffee.
I talked with Chocolatechip. She is ok. She said she washed a large load of laundry this morning. Chocolatechip also said someone ripped off the dryer door in the 6th floor laundry room. Then she went over finances for May. Things are pretty tight this month. I was going on about how aide took my toothbrush and toothpaste and put in in a dirty wash basin. We can’t get over these aides.
Chocolatechip asked when I’m getting my $50 Amazon gift card. They told me the 14th I said. This is when they go to Walmart. I said I don’t believe them. The nursing home gave me so many lies about what’s rightfully mine. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see what develops. That was the extent of our conversation.
In the meantime I have plenty of books. I’m reading this one book Chancellorsville by Stephen W Sears. This is an excellent book about the Chancellorsville battle during the Civil War. I have many other books to read as well. Its just that I’m addicted to books. I can’t resist buying a book when I see something interesting I just have to buy it!
I just finished talking with a woman from Adult Protective Services. Once again spoke up. I said the same old song and dance.. She is going to the social worker. I said I only talked with the social worker a million times. She wasted five minutes of my time.
2:51p.m. I am in the shittiest mood. I should of kept my big mouth shut. I get upset and depressed whenever I talked with someone about the nursing home because nothing ever changes. To make things worse I’m in terrible pain from the fucking hoyer pad. Again I need changed. The aides said she will get to me after her lunch break. Nothing is going right today.
I want out of here in the worst way. But what is the point? The APS lady said care is bad everywhere. I heard the same from a number of sources. APS lady said nobody wants to work these days. So if I move I’ll be going to another shit hole. I dunno I just feel so discouraged and defeated.
4:41p.m. I’m in bed. At least I’m off the hoyer pad. I’ve been sitting in poop and piss in almost all afternoon. I was also without water and my mouth was a sandbox. No wonder I was in such a lousy mood. Well I’m off the hoyer pad and wearing dry briefs. I have water now. Things are somewhat better.
Then to make matters worse Chocolatechip isn’t answering my calls. I think she is very mad and upset with me. It is a long story and I don’t want to discuss it. Whatever the problem is I hope it isn’t a deal breaker. I would simply die if she were not in my life.
Now that I’m settled I’m going back to my book. I guess that’s all I’m good for.
6:01p.m. I had a delicious supper. They served roasted chicken, scalloped potatoes, carrots and pumpkin crunch for dessert. That was the best part of my day. Also talked with Chocolatechip. We are cool.
This was a very bad day. I hope tomorrow will be better
8:40p.m. I’m ok now except I’m soaked. I’ve been laying in pee since supper. The so called aide said she couldn’t change me then left. This was almost two hours ago. I’m having a good night despite the shitty treatment. I’ve been doing a lot of reading. Thank God for my books. I’d be lost without them
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