Thursday 3/24/22

12:31am The aids finally put me to bed at midnight. I was a bit pissed. When I finally saw an aid I was so glad they came to help. But there is no excuse for this lack of care. What makes it bad is they will be getting me up at five. I will be getting less than five hours sleep. This is nursing home boot camp!

9:17am I had a hell of a night. It took me awhile to get to sleep thanks to arthritis pain. To make matters worse the aids got me up at five. Jesus, I was so tired. I slept in my wheelchair until breakfast.  Didn’t have much to eat, just two slices of French toast? At least the coffee was hot. I had two cups and a glass of oj. This time breakfast did nothing for me.

I was still tired and miserable . I talked with Chocolatechip on the phone. She wasn’t doing good at all  This marks the fourth day she has been ready for maintenance. They have not come to fix her work orders. Then, the fire alarm went off. She said someone rang her buzzer. She thinks it was the fire dept. Then she was upset because of the Bitch Clique harassing her. Needless to say Chocolatechip wasn’t in a good mood.

I feel depressed this morning. Everything seems to be turning to shit. MN I’m worried sick about Chocolatechip. I’d like to see her move from that place. It is not safe anymore I told her. I like to see her move to FP. But she said Doug is down there. Then I feel physically sick and emotionally drained. Just once I’d like to get a good night’s sleep. But that is not going to happen. I’m afraid everything is turning to shit.

One good thing is I’m going to start a new book today. This is a two volume biography of Franklin Delano Roosevelt by James MagGregor Burns. The first is The Fox and the Lion 1882-1940. This book is about Roosevelt’s early life, his first two terms as President and the Great Depression. The second volume, Soldiet of Freedom discusses Roosevelt’s leadership during WWII. I’m looking forward to starting these books.

I hope I can start reading and escape into history.

8:39pm I slept most of the afternoon. I was very tired and depressed . Then I had an accidental around dinner time. I rang the call light. The male aid who doesn’t like me answered. He was very irate. He picked up a urinal lying on my dresser and slam it on my table. He practically yelled at me “Next time use this!” But he did changed me.

This did not help the shitty day I’ve been having. I was very angry. It’s bad enough I don’t get enough sleep at night. Then the aids treat me like shit. I told the night nurse about it. I said I don’t deserve to be treated like this . I also said I don’t like to rat on people nor do I pee myself on purpose. She said she knows that and will take care of the situation. I felt somewhat better.

I had a good dinner of corn chowder , pasta and an egg salad sandwich. For desert I had orange sherbert. This was the best part of the day. Dinner put me in a better mood. I didn’t talk to Chocolatechip because she went to bed early. I started to read my book on Franklin Roosevelt The Fox and the Lion 1882-1940.

The child that was to be known as FDR was born in January 30,1882 in the family estate of Hyde Park along the Hudson river. James MagGregor Burns writes that the boy had an idyllic childhood. The mother Sara kept him in skirts until the age of five. Throughout hi Earl childhood Roosevelt was doted on by family and servants.

The author talked about Roosevelt’s ancestors. FDR came from a very long line. The first Roosevelt came from the Netherlands to New Amsterdam in 1640. Burns also wrote about how Franklin was educated in Groton and Harvard.

This is going to be another good book. I forgot about my problems with the male aid. I sort of got lost in this biography. I feel a lot better now.

Well it is 9:14pm. I’ve been in this wheelchair since five,that’s sixteen hours. I hope I get to bed at a decent hour. If not I hope I get to bed at least before midnight.