Thursday 1/20/22

5:25am I am up and in my wheelchair. I had a good night and slept without any nightmares. I’m in my wheelchair. I’m experiencing low level of pain. I am having a good morning.

I’m still tired though. I don’t function without morning coffee. They will not be serving coffee for ninety minutes. This is a major bummer! Also don’t have any water and I feel I have a mouthful of sand. I guess I’m not doing so good after all. Just wish I had some water and coffee. I might as well wish for a winning lotto ticket.

I did some reading last night. I’m still on my book The Hit by David Baldacci. I’m at an interesting part. Will Robie realizes that Jessica Reel might have a good reason for turning against the agency.    Again I do not want to reveal the plot or the story. All I will say is that it’s very good.

I read until they put me to bed. I got to bed at a decent hour. I must of been tired because I slept. I had a good night with no weird dreams. Life is good..

7:37am I got my breakfast of French toast and coffee. The coffee was hot I feel awake and like I’m a human being. I was sleeping in my wheelchair until when they brought breakfast. It is nice to be awakened with food and coffee. I am truly grateful.

I think I had a very weird dream. I was dressed as a woman There were a lot of men in my house. They were all gangsters playing poker. Some were very important politicians. They paid no mind as to how I was dressed. At one point I was in the kitchen talking with this one man. I remember asking him if he knew I was a man he said yes. That’s all I remember from that dream.

I have a lot of dreams like that,about me dressed as a woman and gangsters. I used to dream about the Mafia being after me or about being crossed. I find these dreams disturbing. I want no part of either lifestyle. Oh well, they are only dreams.

Well I’m fully awake thanks to coffee. I am ready to get up from my wheelchair and run a marathon. I really feel awake. But I will just sit here thinking and brooding about what might of been. Better than that I think I’ll go read my book.

10:51am It looks like I might not have to get a new tablet after all. Lady from activities dept was passing out the menus for the day. . She asked me how much tablet was working. I sad fine. Then she said she will look into getting me a new charger. That would be great I said to myself.

I have been enjoying my book The Hit by David Baldacci. I’m having a good morning with no pain.I feel pretty good in fact. I read a couple hours and that always brings peace.

I talked with Chocolatechip. Her new case manager just left. She was helping with thee waver program. Chocolatechip was telling me that here this seems to be a good program. For example, it would pay for r the cost of a nursing home. The cm helped her fill out the form. They will either say yes or no.

Well back to my book

1:49pm I had a good lunch of turkey with gravy, potatoes and carrots. I had the all important cup of coffee and chocolate milk. I have been reading. The Hit is getting more interesting with each passing page. I’m not going to discuss the story. I will say the book is excellent. Talked with Chocolatechip. She is in good spirits. I’m having a good day as well. Anytime I don’t have pain is good.

I could use a nice hot shower. I can’t remember the last time they took me to the shower. Last night one of the morning aids said I smelled lol Ike mildew. I must stink pretty bad. In their defense I was in isolation for ten days. Then I got sick very bad. Perhaps I will get one tonight.

I don’t feel depressed today. Depression was bad yesterday. Emotionally, I’m ok. I might not be up to par but I am better. I’m not sure why I feel better. I’m still living in a nursing home. I still can’t walk. I still pee myself. I still don’t see these things getting better. But I feel better today .I think it is lack of pain, good food and hot coffee.

I also think it is my ability to access my books. I’m reading a good book now. I get lost in the story and forget about my circumstances. I m not sitting in my chair brooding or thinking about my past. I’m actually enjoying myself thanks to the tablet and books.

7:02pm I did a lot of reading. The Hit sure has some major twist to the story I’m really enjoying this book. I read until around supper. Supper was shitty. I ate the corn chowder soup. I ate the orange sherbert and half an egg salad sandwich.that was all I could stomach Then after supper Chocolatechip and I got in a spat. We worked it out though

My oxygen tubing is broke. Told the nurse about it I will see if I get some results. It’s kind of scary to be without oxygen for too long..

Been in this chair for fourteen hrs. I’m tired and could go to bed now. They have been putting me to bed at a decent hour. I was in bed around nine last night. I home to get to bed around the same time.

I’m kind of read out for the day. Like I said I got into my book this afternoon. It felt good to be reading. Going to have to watch how I use the tablet tonight. Roommate is using his adapter to charge his phone. It sure is nice of him to let me borrow it for my tablet.

I had a fairly good day with depression. Now I feel down. That spat I had with Chocolatechip didn’t help. I don’t like to argue, especially with my girlfriend. It got me down a bit even though we worked through our problems. I hope we are good.

Got my tubing fixed. It’s nice to know I can breathe. Aid came to take my dinner tray. I was glad to see the last of it.

Well, going to look at the walls for awhile. I hope they put me to bed early

8:40pm I am besides myself. I should turn off this tablet and chil. But I can. I won’t be able to charge it because my roommate is charging his phone. Been burning the battery by playing chess. I lost most of my games. Aid is making my bed now. I hope to be in it soon