Sunday 8/21/22

5:38am I cancelled my subscription to the New York Times.  I wasn’t reading it and couldn’t see the point in paying $19.99 a month. I’m going to miss the paper. I need the money more. Now I will have enough money for that Stephen King book I don’t know. I might pick it up again next month depending on the financial situation. I keep thinking the top prorities are to get caught up on rent is an d pay down credit card debt.

I had an ok night. I didn’t get to bed until after eleven but that’s was ok. I must of been ready for bed because I soon fell asleep. I had a nice aide who took care of me when I rang the call light. She got me up and into my wheelchair by five. I had a good fairly pain free night with no weird or disturbing dreams.

I feel ok this morning. I am experiencing the usual aches and pains of old age but I’m ok. I’m above the dirt and that is what counts. I could very much use some coffee but  that is the same old story. I will have to wait until they serve breakfast. This is a major bummer!

10:43am I’m having a great morning so far. First, I had a roll, scrambled eggs, oatmeal, three cups of coffee, oj and Then I readf and chocolate milk. Then I called Chocolatechip. Well had a nice ong conversation about everything. Then I read my book for awhile. I started chapter fifteen about the Whig party. My reading was interrupted by my aide. She gave me a shower and a shave I got dressed in pants and a shirt This is much better than wearing those hospital gowns. I feel like a new man.

Aide pushed me back to my room when she finished. I called Chocolatechip. Chocolatechip is doing fine as well. She told me how w she is going to save as$30 on her Comcast bill. The. bill itself ios $124.48 for phone, Internet and cabbie. Ki told her about saving around $43  by cutting back on myself my Amazon services. J. Chocolatechip was looking at airbed and found  Coleman airbed for $75 something.  She was trying to figure out her budget but she thinks it doable it looks like we are both having a good day.

1:37pm I fell asleep after my shower. I talked to Chocolatechip when I woke up. We talked until lunch. I was going on about how nice my aide is today. I said she got me all cleaned up then pushed me back to my room. I then had a couple incontinence episodes, one right after another. I said to Chocolatechip everytime I get cleaned up I have a bad incontinence episode. I hate having this problem and I always feel humiliated when I pee myself.

I had a good lunch. I had Salisbury steak, mashed potatoes with gravy and green beans. For desert I had vanilla ice cream which is a special treat. Then I had two cups of hot coffee and a glass of fruit punch.

I talked to Chocolatechip again after lunch. I was going on about how good the food is in here. I said I like most of the meals they serve. Chocolatechip said Norman doesn’t like their food. She goes on to say neither did Tim.l I said they must be very picky eaters. I talked to her about how I do not like some of the meals such as ham and pinto beans or spinach but  most of the meals are delicious. She said Norman and Tim are hard to please.

I talked a lot to Chocolatechip today. She was going over her budget for September. It looks pretty good since she cut back on cable. She can afford a bus pass and a new airbed. Chocolatechip was looking at air beds on Walmart.com. She would like to get a Coleman twin and an air pump. I said getting an air bed is a good investment.

We ended our conversation. I rang the call light to get changed. I’m getting good care today. Aide came promptly and she did a great jobs

Well, twelve more days till I get my SS check. My budget is cut Andy dried. It goes on rent . Let’s see $860.00- $583.00(rent) leaves $277$ $140 goes to Capital One and $137 to Credit one. I will buy that new Stephen King book Fairy Tales for $16.99 plus a David Baldacci book , The 6:20 Man. im going to make the Capital One my default  Amazon credit card. If I get these two books that will be $33.98 This will leave me with $106.02 minus $3.99 leaves $102.03 This will go towards paing off my Capital One debt. As for Credit One $75 goes towards the monthly fee while $62 goes towards paying off the Kindle. It is all doable

So I will be buying some books. I just can’t go crazy at least until I get my rent paid up. Remember, getting caught up on the rent and paying down my credit card are the top prorities.

6:01pm I had a turkey club sandwich, clam chowder, cucumber salad and grapes for desert. For drinks they served hot coffee and a fruit punch. Supper was pretty good and I ate it all. Chocolatechip went to bed early tonight. We were talking on the phone and I started to dose off so we said our goodbyes. Besides, she had a doctor’s appointment in the morning.

I tried to read but just couldn’t get into my book What Hath God Wrought by Daniel Walker Howe.  I would get tired and lose concentration. I’m still on chapter fifteen. I’ll start over from there and try to finish that chapter tonight. I’m fairly awake now after a good meal so I might be able to reach my reading goal.

One thing Chocolatechip and I talked about was the possibility of me getting better and moving back to OT. I said if that ever happens we might not be able to see each other because of bed bugs. She said we were giving each other bed bugs. She also said that she could not help out like she did before because of her health problems. Then she said it doesn’t look like I will be coming back. I have too many problem

Chocolatechip is right. My chances of ever getting out of here are slim. I’m crippledj by arthritis. I have severe bladder problems. These are but two major issues that are keeping me in the home. It looks like this is my final destination.

From there we got on the topic of how much time I have left. The thought is praying on my mind. I told Chocolatechip I might have a good ten years left. I might not live until I’m past eighty. I was saying that I feel so tired all the time. I also said I’m in more or less constant pain  from arthritis.  I really get physically tired from this and it is getting worse. Then I have COPD and that gets worse and worse. In short I have some serious health problems. Heck, I never thought I’d make it to 71.

I try not to think of such things. Besides, why dwell on the one inevitable? Still these thoughts are creeping up on me. I drown myself in books to avoid these thoughts. I only get depressed when thinking about them.