Sunday 5/5/24

4:14a.m. I’m getting great care . I was changed three or four times tonight. The problem is I pee myself right after the aide leaves. It is so frustrating.  

I’ve been having weird dreams as well. I had a bad one about my estranged daughter Allison. We finially see each other after pover twenty years. Only we had a very bad fight. She accused me of abandonment and called me every name in the book. I felt terrible.  I tried defending myself but to no avail. She spat in my face and left. Sleep has been intermittent since then. 

I think I’m up for good. I wish I could go back to sleep. They have the air up too high. I can’t sleep when I’m freezing my butt off.  I’m pretty miserable right now.  

9:57a.m. I’m doing a lot better. I started to read Chancellorsville before breakfast. I also watched CNN for a bit. Then I talked with Chocolatechip. I was telling her about my night. I said I went all night without water and peed like crazy. She said I should get the heck out of this nursing home.  I told the social worker I wanted out last month. But I’m still in the same place. We talked until they served drinks and breakfast.

Coffee cheered me up. It was nice and hot. Then breakfast was good. They served a coffee cake, bacon and scrambled eggs. I read my book until the aide came to dress me and get me up. She did a fantastic job. I was dressed and in my wheelchair in time for the coffee social. 

I made it to the Fiesta Room . I made an attempt to be social. Il said hello to this one lady. She wasn’t very responsive. I had one cup that wasn’t very hot or strong. Then I turned around and left for my room. Even though the coffee was barely warm it !ade me feel better. 

Chocolatechip called when I got back to my room. She was doing laundry on the 2nd floor laundry room. The strong oder of marijuana hit her when she got off the elevator. We talked about the drug problem in Misery Towers. She also talked about Tim the Perv.  He is supposed to be in the hospital. He has to learn to walk again. I said he is going to end up in the nursing home. She agreed.   We talked for a few minutes then she had to attend to the laundry. 

Like I said I’m doing a lot better.  I’m glad I was able to get out of my room. I want to concentrate on my book and read as much as possible. That will make me feel even better. Life is good.    

1:22p.m. I’m on a reading roll. I was reading most of the morning stopping shortly before lunch. I finished Chapter 13 in Chancellorsville  I hope to read the next chapter this afternoon. 

Lunch was delicious. They served pot roast with gravy, fried potatoes, carrots, a dinner roll and carrot cake for dessert. I ate it all and didn’t get sick. The coffee was hot and strong, just the way I like it. 

So far I’m having a great Sunday. I wish every day would be this good.    

3:38p.m. Depression hit me all of a sudden. I was doing fine until the Big D hit me after lunch. Suddenly, I felt so lost and alone. But I  handled it very well. I waited until tablet was charged. I took it and my Bluetooth speaker to the Coral Room. I listened to music on YouTube. I played several of my favorite songs for an hour. I felt so much better after indulging in music therapy.  

I don’t know what’s up with Chocolatechip. We haven’t been talking  a lot today. She was busy doing laundry this morning. But we didn’t talk very much after lunch. When we did she was feeling down herself. She said she was going to watch a movie. I figured  could read during her movie. But I was wondering why she was down. Maybe this was one thing that made me sad.   

I guess I was just feeling very lonesome. I don’t get any visitors. Nor do I have anyone to talk with in this place. My roommate sleeps all the time and we don’t talk. This makes for a very lonely life. No wonder I get very anxious when I don’t talk with Chocolatechip. She is all I have.   

6:36p.m. I just ate supper. It wasn’t the greatest . I had two pepperoni rolls that were mostly bread, coleslaw, ministrone soup which was cold and peach strudel for dessert. I am thankful I had something to eat. 

I talked with Chocolatechip after I ate. She cooked a roast in her crockpot. She said it was out of this world delicious. It was a big roast and she can make several meals out of it. We talked about crockpot cooking. I fixed plenty of good meals using a crockpot. I said you can’t beat a meal from the crockpot. We talked for about half an hour then she wanted to go to bed. 

Except for a bout of depression this was a pretty good day. I got to the coffee social. I had three meals. I finished reading a chapter in. Y book. I had an hours worth of music therapy. I talked with a wonderful woman. It was so good I hate to see it end.   

9:15p.m. I finished reading Chapter 14 in my book. I have one more to go. I can finish this one tomorrow. Next up is Gettusburg by Stephen W Sears. Also, this marks 100 straight days of reading! I’m proud of myself. Yay Me!    

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Me in bed.     

11:10p.m. I can’t seem to fall asleep. I feel a bit  wired . I had four cups of coffee today. I’m thinking that’s way too much. I’m in a pickle. I read almost a hundred pages today and that is enough. But I cannot sleep

I’ve been channel surfing. I came upon C-SPAN . They have a show on on called Booktv. They were talking about a book called The New Cold War. It sounded interesting so I added it to my wish list. I wish I could buy it. Anyways I’ll check out this program next week.

I’m getting great care tonight. I needed changed a couple hours ago. I rang my call light. The aide came right away. Best part was she didn’t say gimme a few. She was friendly and changed my briefs. Then she got help and they pulled me up in bed. I even got fresh water for the night. I’ll be damned. 

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