Sunday 5/01/22

1:25 pm I had a bad night because of insomnia. I got to bed at a decent hour. I was tired but couldn’t sleep. Then when the aides came to get me out of bed I couldn’t speak and my nose was so stuffed I couldn’t breathe. I felt like hell this morning but despite being sick I was in my wheelchair by 5:30 I think I slept in my chair until breakfast. I had pancakes, scrambled eggs, hot cereal, two cups of coffee and a glass of oj.

I was pretty sick and miserable. Also felt very depressed. I was thinking I’m going to spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. I got to thinking about what I was talking to Chocolatechip about. We were going on about what we are getting out of or which is m. I said my life is just about over. She felt she was not living but existing.This ch so mution went through my mind all morning and made me very depressed.

So I sat in my chair feeling sorry for myself. I didn’t read and  couldn’t pick up my tablet. I called Chocolatechip and she wasn’t feeling that much better. I had a hard to time understanding her because she wouldn’t talk very loud. This only added to the depression and made things worse. I felt very bad because I was of no help. Heck, I felt as though I couldn’t help myself.

Two good things happened this morning. First, I got a shower. This made me feel so much better. Second I talked with someone from the activities department. I told them about the missing cord and adaptor. The lady found one that might be compatible with my tablet. She was going to order it today and wanted credit card info. I said I didn’t have money on my card. She said she will see if the home can help me. If not both cord and  adaptor cost $14 something from Amazon. I will pay for it myself.

Then I had a pretty good lunch. I had chicken, dressing, mixed veggies, two coffees and a fruit punch. I had peaches for desert. Lunch was pretty good and put me in a better mood

7:14pm This was a very bad day. I felt like sick as a dog. I could hardly talk because of laryngitis. Then I was tired and tired and weak all day. I slept in my wheelchair most of the day. I coul hardly look at my tablet let alone read. I also ached all over. I felt like a miserable sick puppy. But I did have a good appetite. I had a hot roast beef sandwich, mashed potatoes with gravy and green beans. For drinks . I had coffee and a fruit punch. This was the bright part of my day.

I hope to get to bed early tonight. I’m very tired and very sick. I should have stayed in bed all day. Well goodnight