Sunday 10/2/22

4:11am The aides put me to bed early around 9:30. I stayed up and read most of Chapter 16 in my book. It was an interesting chapter about the the railroad and cattle industries in the west. I think I read/listened abou an  until I got sleepy.

I had a good night with minimal pain. I slept good with no nightmares. I also got good care. I had a nice aide who came in to change me. Only problem was they got me up way too early. I was up and in my wheelchair by 4:00

I’m having a good morning for a change. I don’t feel too tired. Nor am I hurting as much. Pain level  is at a two on my one to five scale. I could use some coffee but will have to wait until they serve breakfast. Life is good.

 This is a sad day though. My subscription to the NYT expired. I don’t have any money to get it renewed. I might be able to use my new credit card sometime after the third. I’ll iss that paper. I might be able to use my Capital One card next month. I don’t know at this point.All I know is I will miss that paper.

Oh well, if that is all I have to worry about I am truly blessed. I have plenty of reading material . I have four more books in the Oxford History of the United States series. Then I have those new books by Stephen King and David Baldacci I have many books in my library to keep me busy. I will not get bored. 

6:16m. I was doing pretty good this morning. I was sitting in my wheelchair reading my book. I had a massive incontinence episode a little bit ago. I rang the call light a in d no help. I pushed myself out in the hall and didn’t see the light on. So this I went to the nurse’s station to ask for help.thirty minuted ago.This was that thirty minutes age and still no help.

In the meantime I’m sitting here soaked in urine. I’m not happy right now. The longer I have sit the madder I get. This is just not right. 

I’ve been getting pretty good care the last few days. I got good care last night. Today is not starting off very well at all. 

8:03am I had a roll, scrambled eggs and hot cereal for breakfast. Then I had my two cups of coffee and orange juice. I’ve been getting scrambled eggs every day but I don’t mind. I like scrambled eggs for breakfast.

I haven’t been changed yet. I’ve been waiting for two hours. Now the aides are busy with breakfast trays. I will have to wait for at least another hour. This really sucks.  

I have a bit of good news. I got today’s NYT after all. I don’t know how much longer I will get this. Subscription was expired yesterday I guess I’ll have to take it one day at a time. 

11:55am I am trying to solve a mystery. I cannot figure out why I’m getting the NYT. I am charged $19.99 for a monthly subscription. My subscription ran out yesterday . I have absolutely zero credit available on both cards. Why am I still getting the paper?

Other than that I’m having an ok morning. They took me to the dinning room to get weighed. Ithink I might of gained weight because I’ve been eating like a horse. I just had as pbj on the way back. Not much else to do in this nursing home but sleep, eat and read.

I called Chocolatechip. She had a bad night with insomnia. She was going on about t her marriages to Doug and Ed. I said my biggest mistake was marrying Debbie  I also said neither one was your fault. We talked briefly about mistakes and retreats. My biggest retreat was not finishing West Liberty and getting involved with Debbie. Hers were her marriags. I guess we all have mistakes and retreats.

Ended our conversation because my lunch was coming. I had Salisbury steak, mashed potatoes with gravy, grean beans and ice cream for desert. The two cups of coffee were hardly warm but I drank it anyways.Dezpite the coffee lunch was good and I ate it all.

1:22pm I pushed myself to the dinning room. I felt I needed to get out of my room for a while. It’s rather nice here  They have several tables scattered around the room. The also have a big screen. TV. The ceiling fans are not running so the temp is comfortable. I like coming here when I need to get out of my room

I’d like to start reading Chapter 17″ The Center Falls” in  The Republic for Which it Stands.” I have seven more chapters to go then I’m finished. If I can read two chapters a day I should be done by Wednesday. I think I will continue reading this The Oxford History Of the United States. So next up is Freedom from Fear: The American People in Depression and War by David M Kennedy

I called Chocolatechip and left a message after lunch. She can contact me on messenger. For now it’s back to my books.

4:14pm I’m mad at the aides again. I was in the Dinning room area and peed myself. I went back to my room and rang the call light. I have been trying to get help ever since. I the meantime I had several months ore incontinence episodes. I’m drenched and been sitting in urine for at least an hour.

I never did do any reading while I was out . I started chatting with Chocolatechip. She came up with yet another good idea. Since I’m on Medicaid Icould qu!ify for a government phone. It is free. She looked up the number and I have it written down.I will bring ing this up with the social social worker Monday. We chatted for about an hour.

I came back to my room and tried to read. I couldn’t concentrate I kept thinking about tomorrow. I get my SS check of $750.00. $583.00 goes to rent. I couldn’t decide what to do with the rest.then I figured I might as well put it all on Credit One. I will have to use the express payment this way I can have the cash available instantantly. 

I also updated my OD and Amazon accounts. I’m not going to use the Capital One card. I want to pay it off. I will start off with $100.00 a month. I will get a big SS raise in January. I might be cable to doble that by then. It will take me awhile but I’ll pay off every darned penny 

So I’ve been occupied with urinary and financial problems this afternoon. Also, lack of care put me in such a bad frame of mind. I could not concentrate on my book because I got so mad. At least I hope I got the financial problems straight. We will see about that tomorrow.

6:24pm I had a pork sub sandwich, cucumber and and applesauce for desert. Supper was ok but the coffee was cold. I drank it anyways. I had yet another incontinence episode during supper. This makes the third such incident since lunch. I did not get any help. They probably will not change me until bedtime.

I was pretty upset. I’m over it now. What is the use of getting upset? It’s not going to change anything. By getting mad and frustrated I am only burning up time that I will not get back. I could of spent the afternoon reading but I wasted time being angry and upset. Still sitting in urine all afternoon will make anyone angry.

I feel somewhat calmer now. Except for the coffee supper was good. Eating a good meal always makes me feel better. Unlike a couple men I like the food here. It’s the occasional lack of care that makes me mad. 

They got me up way too early at 4:00. Eve been sitting in this wheelchair for almost fifteen hours. Half the time I’ve been sitting in urine. I’m not too happy about this as well. I’d like to go to bed early tonight. But they will get me up at four in the morning. I’d rather stay up late reading and get up at five. I strongly dislike this schedule.cg

So this has been a shitty day. I hope to ight I can get back to my book. I think I can finish chapter 17 tonight keeping with my goal of one chapter per day.

8:20pm I finally got changed. Also, after 16 hours,I’m in bed. I just couldn’t take it any longer. I had to sit in urine half the day My butt was so sore from sitting in urine and on that damned hoyer pad I couldn’t stand it. I truly believe today marked the worse day of my time in this nursing home. It was hell!

Nothing good can be said about today except that it is almost over. I’m in bed. Aide washed the wounds on my butt. I feel a bit better I only hope I sleep tonight. Tomorrow can’t be any worse.