Saturday 12/24/22

5:28a.m. I’m above the dirt and blessed another day. I am  not going to waste time feeling sorry for myself. That was a day out of my life I will never get back. I’m going to enjoy today by reading. Life is too short to waste it on depression and anxiety. Sometimes you just got to let things go. I’m going to let all the negative crap go I’m going to live and enjoy the rest of my life.

I was put in bed around 11:30 last night. I was pretty tired and sleepy. I slept well. I nice dream about my long lost daughter Allison and my parents. It took place in our old house on Mahan Avenue in Follansbee. It was a festive occasion because it was Christmas. We were all happy to see each other. It was a good family reunion.

My roommate did not yell or cuss last night. So I slept through most of it. I had minimal pain. I felt warm and safe. My aide came in at five to wake me up. She gave me a nice sponge bath and change my briefs.  I feel fairly rested but could use some coffee. 

8;18p.m. I started out determined to have a good day. I felt very upbeat this morning. Unfortunately this positive mood did not last. I got a bit down after breakfast. I was soon into a full blown depressive episode This lasted most of the day.ni tried but I kept thinking about Chocolatechip and my long lost daughter. I missed them both. Iwasted another day by sleeping in my wheelchair.

I got some nice presents from the nursing home . One thing that made my day was a $25″Amazon gift card. I bought two books The Life of Greece and The Story of Philosophy by Will Durant Then I got some much needed items such ad a nice warm blanket, socks and a Uno card game. I ended up having a nice Christmas after all.

Unfortunately, Chocolatechip didn’t have such a nice Christmas. She had a run in with another tenant who is a first class Bitch.. Chocolatechip was telling me the story on Messenger.The entire incident ruined her Christmas?n felt very bad . If there was such a thing as National slap anBitch Day this person would be first on my list.

Well tomorrow is Christmas. I hope tomorrow will be a much better day.