Monday 8/28/23

12:01a.m. I can’t believe I slept all day yesterday. I wasn’t doing well at all. I guess sleep is the best medicine because I feel a lot better. Getting a nice shower and a shave was an added bonus. The  aide was very nice and she did a good job in cleaning me up, getting me back on bed and changing my briefs. So a very bad day ended on a good note

I’m still calling Michelle, the ombudsman, first thing  in the morning. Lying in shit and piss all night long has got to stop. The ombudsman works with legal aide. She investigates malfeasance by public officials and places like nursing homes. I called her before and the care got better, for awhile. It will not hurt to call again. 

I hope I can get back to sleep. I don’t want to be sleeping all day tomorrow I have books to read and deadlines to meet. I have eight days to finish that book America’s Unwritten Constitution The Precidents and Principles We Live By by Akhil Reed Amar. I want to finish that book before the Stephen King book becomes available. I have seven more days.  

5:16a.m. I did get some sleep.i had a lot of weird dreams. I remember one dream where I was dressed as a woman. I met a woman who liked me that way. She took me to her apartment. It was a real fancy Ulta modern place.  But she had a blanket on the floor for a bed. She got on the floor and wanted me to join her. I bulked because she transformed into a man. I ran like hell out of that place.

I got great care. Aide came in to change me at 5:00am .He changed me again a couple hours later. Then he dressed me in a pair of pants and a shirt. I’m in my wheelchair now waiting for that all important coffee and juice  Life is good.

I feel a lot better than yesterday. I’m still pretty tired but I can stay up. I’m not nearly in as much pain. I’m not depressed like I was yesterday because I’m getting proper care. This is going to be a great day. 

7:26a.m. The pain level in my right shoulder is high. I’d rate it a 5 on a 1-5 pain scale. I could use a good massage or a couple Ibuprofen I had my coffee and juice. Breakfast was sucky. They served a Western style scrambled eggs and a coffee cake. I ate the cake but couldn’t eat the eggs. The eggs tasted like rubber.

I talked with Chococolatechip. She wask in good spirits. We talked about favorite movies. She mentioned  scene from The Dear Hunter which was filmed locally. We also talked about Fredo, a character in the Godfather. Then she mentioned going with Betty Jo to turn in her  application to Freedom Place. I said I’d never thought I would see the day. She agreed with me on that one.

Other than being in pain and having a lousy breakfast I’m in good spirits. I’m still going to call Michelle,the ombudsman at nine. I hate to bitch about things all the time. But I also hate lying in urine all night long. I hope it will do some good. Something has got to give. I can’t put up with this shit much longer.

10:49a.m. I called Michelle but didn’t get an answer. I left a message the second time. I hope she calls me back. Chococolatechip ‘s trip to Freedom Place didn’t go well. She didn’t have the right income verification letter from Social Security The last time I talked with her she was worried  that she acted up the process. I tried to comfort her but I’m afraid i wasn’t much of a help. 

I also did a lot of reading. I finished  Chapter 6 in my book America’s Unwritten Constitution The Presidents and Principles We Live By. I started the next chapter. Here, the author talked about the 19th Amendment which have some. The right to vote. I hope to finish this chapter today.

As always I made it to the Coffee Social. They are bringing me my second cup now. I was sore And a bit cranky but I’m fine now after two coffees. Only problem is they are serving the infamous ham and pinto beans for lunch. I can’t stomach that shit.

12:45p.m. I had a good time at the Coffee Social. The coffee perked me up pretty good. Good news was I had two pieces of fish and scalloped potatoes for lunch.  Ham and pinto beans are for supper. At least I had one good meal today. 

Bad news is I’m worried about Chococolatechip. She is having a shitty day .  Chococolatechip is very depressed over the FP fiasco. I called her when I got back. Usually she is talkative and upbeat but not today. I wish there was something I can do to cheer her up I really?y feel helpless when she gets like this.  I truly feel bad because she had her hearts set on Freedom Place. I’m hoping it isn’t over yet.

I had a major bm after I ate. I can’t help myself but I still felt embarrassed as hell. I needed changed big time. Fortunately, a nice aide quickly pushed me back to my room. I didn’t want to be pushing myself down the long hall while smelling like poop. Hopefully, I can get put in bed soon and changed. 

My wish had been granted. I had a couple nice aides who got me in bed, cleaned me up and changed my briefs. I’m off the Hoyer pad at last. I feel a lot better.

I also talked with Chococolatechip. She is doing a bit better Thank you God! for watching over her. 

2:18p.m. I want to read but can’t concentrate. I’ve been browsing books on my Amazon wish list I came across a couple books I’d really like to have. I have $16.01 available on !y Amazon gift card. If I buy a book now I can’t get the Stephen King book , Holly. Then I’d turly be kicking myself in the butt. I’m hanging onto that $16.01 for dear life. I truly want that book. But it is so damned tempting.

September 5 is eight days away. This is a short time. But to me it  seems like eternity. I guess to avoid temptation I need to stay away from Amazon. I need to somehow find will power. But I have no will power when it comes to books. The next eight days will be the hardest and longest eight days of my life.

But there is no end to my book madness! John Grisham, my second favorite author, is coming out with a new book in October. It is called The Exchange. It is a sequel to an earlier book called The Firm. Of course I have to get these two books. Then there is a new David Baldacci novel coming out. I can’t pass up this one either. Igo crazy thinking about books . I need more books like I need another butt hole.  

7:12p.m.  I achieved my reading goal by finishing Chapter 7. I’m  debating on starting Chapter 8 tonight. I’d like to finish this book in three days. I can do it if I read two chapters a day. Problem is staying awake. If I start now I should finish Chapter 8 by nine. Nine is my bedtime. Heck. I’m on a role, let’s do it!

 Before starting I didn’t eat supper. I had a big lunch and wasn’t too hungry. They did serve the infamous ham and pinto beans I refused to take the tray.The smell of that shit makes me sick.  I did have a pbj. It was better than nothing 

Well, it is back to my book. I must study for the big test.