Monday 10/16/23

9:43a.m. Last night was better with fewer muscle spasms. I had a weird dream. I was dreaming about Chococolatechip. We were in a jewelry store. I bought her a a few necklaces. I think I picked out two or three necklaces. I paid by check. The cost came to $72 something. I was worried the check was going to bounce. I kept trying to figure out how I was going to cover the check.

I also got good care. . I had a new girl who came in to change me two or three times. Then she came in at five to get me out of bed. She cleaned me up got me dressed and into my wheelchair. I can’t complain about lack of care

I called Chocolatschip. She went over her finances. One thing I’m het favor is she will be reimbursed for an unauthorized charge on her debit card. I think it was $35 from a Walter Drake catalog She also talked about getting $40 back from the city for November bus pass. Then she talked about her doctor’s appointment and going to Krogers later.

We talked briefly then she had to do housework. I was still pretty tired and achy. I fell asleep in my wheelchair. I slept until they served breakfast. I had a biscuit, scrambled eggs, a banana and oatmeal. I was still sleepy so I went back to sleep. I slept until it was time for the Coffee Social

I’m feeling a bit better now that I had an extra cup coffee. My shoulder aches but I’m not plaged by muscle spasms. I hope this will be a better day.

12:55p.m. I had a good time at the Social. Then they started doing arts and crafts. I hate doing that shit so I made my way back to my room. I didn’t do much except wait around for lunch. Lunch was late but it was good. I had two grilled ham and cheese sandwiches with fries and jello. I ate it all. So far I didn’t get sick. Lunch and the coffee finally started my engine.

I haven’t heard from Chococolatechip. She said she was going to Krogers after her doctor’s appointment. So she is probably out shopping. I also haven’t been reading this morning I was just too groggy and tired. I hope to pick up my book this afternoon. Now that I’m awake and without major arthritis pain I should be able to concentrate.

3:41p.m. I’m a little bit pissed. I’ve been lying in urine and feces since lunch I’m in bed and changed now. But the aides who helped me wasn’t very friendly or gentle. Then she yelled at me when I asked for something. I swear some of these CNA’s should be working at Walmart But I’m dry now and that what counts.

I didn’t read this afternoon. I fell asleep in my wheelchair. Besides sitting in your own poop does not make it easy to concentrate. I can read tonight. Right now I was chatting with Chococolatechip She was telling me she got invited to a picnic at the Salvation Army. She said she cannot go for various reasons. One of them being lack of transportation. We just ended our chat because she had to fix dinner.

I’m going read before my dinner. I’m having Salisbury steak, blended vegetables, a dinner roll, scalloped potatoes and Angel food cake. For the most part the meals are good here in the nursing home.

6:47p.m. I ate some of my supper. The Salisbury steak was greasy and the potatoes were cold. Supper went right through me but they are taking care of dinner trays. So I will not be able to get help. I will be lucky if I get my briefs changed tonight. I swear I wish I could stop eating altogether. I sick almost after every meal.

I talked with Chococolatechip after I ate. I feel like a real asshole because I asked if she could afford another $25 Amazon gift card. I’m afraid they might close my account for inactivity I said That was what happened to my Barnes and Noble account. She said her finances are looking better in November so it might be doable. I said make sure you have everything you need first . Chococolatechip said she can bring it up when she comes for a visit. Tentative date for that is November 6. I’m truly blessed to have such a wonderful woman.

We talked about other things as well. Chococolatechip doesn’t have any appointments tomorrow. She plans on making her famous homemade chili. Chococolatechip does make the best chili in the world. She used to make double batch every fall and share it with other tenants. It was the rave of the building. But she is done sharing her food with people. I wish I was there because I miss her cooking.

The day is coming to an end. I didn’t do any reading yet. I hope to read tonight before going to sleep. I try reading every day when I’m feeling well enough. But I was laying in piss and poop half the afternoon. That does not put anyone in the mood for reading. But I’m determined to make up for it tonight.After all I have that big test in Modern American Literature to study for.

Life is good!

8:47p.m. I have been reading The Drawing of the Three by Stephen King. Also got my meds for the night and a dose of Mylanta. Mylanta settled my stomach. Reading helped settle my nerves. I still didn’t get changed. But I feel calm and not depressed I think getting involved in a good book helped more than the meds.

It is almost my bedtime but I want to stay up and read.I just finished an interesting chapter on the book. I was reading a part where a young black woman was deliberately pushed in front of an oncoming Subway train The following scene was gruesome and spooky Next chapter is going to be just as good.

I still haven’t been changed. I have been laying n piss and poop since supper. But I’m still pretty content thanks to my book. This neglect has been par for the course today. There is nonsense in getting anxious or upset because that will make matters worse. I might as well go back to my book and enjoy the rest of the night.