Friday 9/1/23

6:11a.m. I slept a lot last night. I fell asleep after supper. I must of been tired I got up twice. Once when the nurse came to give me my evening meds.  Second when the aides came in to change my briefs. I was up for good by three The aide came in around 4:30 to change my briefs and get me out of bed. 

I called Chocolatschip. She had a good night and nobody bothered her. She was working on budgets. It’s going to be close next month. Instead of cigarettes she will buy nicotine lossengers These are very expensive.Then there is the cab fare to and from CMP.   Dollar General ?isy is also very high. I think Chococolatechip said she might have $7 left  after all expenses.

We talked about different subjects for an hour. She mentioned Eddie the Moocher. He threatened a other tenants. The tenant to!d Chococolatechip they will file a police report. Chococolatechip said Eddie is supposed to have a rap sheet z mile long. He is also wanted by the state police. I said how could he get an apartment if he is wanted by the cops?

This is the first of the month. Chococolatechip is going to the bank. Betty Jo,  the case manager, is supposed to be picking her up at 8:30. Shej will  get money orders for rent and Comcast. She has it all figured out down to a dime.

I talked a ?little bit about my book.I said I didn’t read last night. I was sick. I can still finish that book by the 5tj I have four more chapters. Chococolatechip said weekend is a good time to read I said yes but I always get depressed on the weekends and sleep a lot. Still I can finish the book by Monday if I read four chapters a day. I can do this. 

10:39a,m. I talked with Dr Cody, my psychiatrist. She asked a few questions. I told her my are had t been that great, especially at night. I told her about how last Friday I wasn’t changed from supper until they got me up. She asked if I talked with anyone about this. I said I called the ombudsman .She said they should help resolve these issues. 

She asked if I take part in any of the activities. I said I like to go to the Coffee Social. She asked if I go outside. I said I am afraid of having an accident. I also said that I like to go to the book club social.She asked if I’ve been depressed and anxious. I said I get very depressed when I’m lying in a urine and feces.Tnen she asked if there were any other changes.i said I’ve been sleeping a lot lately. She wondered about this one. 

I have been sleeping a lot. I slept in my wheelchair almost all morning. I tried to read but was too tired. Talking to the Dr helped wake me up. Then I talked with Chococolatechip. She just got home from the bank.We talked a few minutes then it was time for the coffee social. I’m at there now and just had my first cup. I’m fully awake  now thanks to caffeine.

1:13p.m. I went to my last Social. They were not very friendly when I asked for a second coffee.  Then I had a massive incontinence episode after I ate lunch. I got pee all over my gown and on the floor. I hate peeing in public and I was so embarrassed.  Everyone could tell and I thought they were all  watching me as I began wheeling myself back to my room. I do not want to go through that again.

I made it to the nurse’s station. I was ignored when I asked to be changed real quick.  They were all busy feeding other clients. But didn’t make me feel better. I desperately needed help but will not get help for another hour at least. So I have to sit in dried urine all afternoon. This sucks big time!

I talked with Chococolatechip. She had a run in with the Bitch Clique while waiting for a ride this morning. Then the ride was late. She had to endure those women for a half hour. That left a bad taste in her mouth because she hates being around those people. Chococolatechip said she cannot wait to move to FP. She hopes she is out of there soon.

I hope to spend the rest of the afternoon reading. I will try my best but it is hard to concentrate when you’re sitting in urine. Needless toy I’m in a bitch of a mood.

4:31pm. I was put in bed and changed around two. I had a nice aide who was very friendly. My mood improved after I got in bed. I chatted with Chococolatechip. She was waiting for groceries from Walmart.com. We chatted on and off all afternoon tThen her groceries finally came around 4. I tried to read after that but didn’t get very far in my book. I hope I can finish Chapter 10  tonight. 

Supper is shitty tonight. They are serving a tuna melt sandwich, potato wedges and fruit sherbet. Only thing I’ll eat is the sherbet.ni just do not like tuna. I would of loved the substitute, Salisbury steak. But I can never get a hold of anyone in the kitchen. I had a big lunch so I’m not hungry. They served BBQ chicken, spinach, scalloped potatoes and a biscuit. I ate everything but the spinach. So I can skip supper. Perhaps I can get a pbj later. 

Later I got to read. I’m getting behind in my book. I finish Chapter ten. I have four chapters to read in four days time. I must stay up and read chapter 10 tonight if I want to reach my deadline. I read some at the social and a little this afternoon but I haven’t been making progress. It is do or die tonight. I’m going to give that book a try now.

7:50p.m. Happy day! I had pizza instead of a tuna melt sandwich. I also had a pbj sandwich. The combination made m. me very bloated  But this didn’t stop me from reading. I started trading after briefly talking with Chococolatechip I finished Chapter 10 and started the next one. If I keep at it I just might get through Chapter 11 tonight

But I feel a bit sick at my stomach  I had Mylanta with my evening meds. That didn’t help much . I almost threw up when the aide was changing me.  But being sick is not going to stop me from reading.