Friday 2/11/22

12:30am It is after midnight and I’m still in my chair. I had that nice aid. I got a good shave and brushed my teeth. I said to her you are the only one who does that. She will soon put me to bed.

I’m not tired at all. I want to start on that new book The Workshop of Democracy by James MacGregor Burns. I think I can stay up most of the night and read. But then I will be a wreck in the morning. I’m kind of wound up, thinking about all those books I bought. I cant wait to get started on them.  This isn’t helping me get some much needed rest but I can’t help myself. I’m enjoying this series of books so much I can’t stop reading or thinking about it. I’m addicted to books and am getting a good fix tonight.

I feel so good right now. I should be pissed because I’m up so late. I’m not pissed at all. I guess I’m on a high or something similar. I don’t want this feeling to end. So I guess I will stay up and read until I calm down. But I hope I get some sleep. I will be miserable in the morning.

In the meantime the tablet is charged up and so am I. Why waste the time? I’m going to read.

5:48am I was up all night. I read part of my book then turned off the tablet. I laid in bed but couldn’t sleep. I could not calm myself. Then I had a lot of incontinence episodes. I rang the call light but nobody answered. So I was lying in urine all night I wasn’t too happy when the aid came to get me out of bed at 5:30. But she cleaned me up some and helped me into my wheelchair. I am ok now.

I am not tired at all.  I must be really wired up. Usually, after being up all night, I’m a zombie. But I feel bright eyed and bushy tailed. I feel like I can really kick some ass. I must have been stimulated by something. Maybe they put something in my coffee I have no idea why I am not dragging it this morning. No doubt it will all catch up to me later on and I will crash.

In any event I’m above the dirt and blessed with another day. I intend to put my time to good use. I’m not going to let myself get depressed. I’m going to read my book The Workshop of Democracy. I’m going to kick butts in physical therapy. I’m going to be the best I can be before I crash. I’m going to have a good day today. Life is good.