Friday 12/16/22
5:12a.m. I had a very bad night. I rang the call light at 11:00. I asked to be put to be. She said she needed to get help and would be back. She did not come back untill 1:00a.m. The same just got got me out of bed at 5. Then I didn’t sleep at all because I was laying in urine. I could not reach the call light because it fell on the floor. Needless to say I had one Losey night.
Oh well. I’m alive and above the dirt I am grateful for that. But I am petty upset.. once again I’ll be sleeping in my wheelchai. Once again there will onot be enough time in the day to do what I want to accomplish. Another day in my life will be wasted.
I feel better after that rant. Things will be ok, really. I must have gotten some sleep. I was having a sex dream with a woman. It was awesome. We were doing the nasty and we can were both getting into it. I was having sex with Chocolatechip. Then I woke up to face reality. I was laying in a puddle of pee.
11:23a.m. I’m having a good day after all. I ha the usual breakfast food plus two coffees and a glass of oj. They must of put something in the food because I felt so good and after I ate. I was able to stay awake and finish a very good book, The 6:20 Man by David Baldacci. I thought I had it figured out but the ending surprised the shit out of me.
I want to go back to reading history. Next up is a book entitled Grand Expectations by James T Patterson. This is the seventh volume in the Oxford History of the United States It history of the U.S. from the end of WWII to Watergate. I read these series of books before and they he are the best books on U.S. history I ever read.
Right now I’m in the Fiesta Room of the nursing home drinking coffee. They have it decorated up real nice for Christmas. There is a Christmas tree all lit up at the far right corner. Also. They have a big screen tv above a fireplace. We are supposed to be reading the local news and socializing. I just came for a much needed caffeine boost.
1:12p.m. I had one coffee at the social then an aide pushed me back to my room. I was te Ady to go for fear of having accident. I had a good time tho I was about to per Mtyself. I just thanks God I made the paper guys I ate my lunch I had fish. Potatoes and broccoli. I had a vanilla cake I for desert then two coffees and a glass of fruit cup.
4:39p.m. I had a so so afternoon. I started to get a bout of depression. Also had a massive incontinence episode.i sat in urine for a long time. That was enough to make anyone depressed. I finally got changed by the nurseg, who was very nice, a few minutes great job. Iu feel a bit better right now.
I was thinking about the last book I read. The 6:20 Man by David Baldacci. I was thinking about the characters in the story. I got very attached to all of them. I was sorry to hear about their ultimate fate. They were like my friends and were a part of my life for a while. Now that I’ve finished with the story I will miss them. Isn’t it weird for a grown man to get caught up with fictional characters?
I didn’t start my new book yet. For one reason I started obsessing about books. I’m maxed out and flat broke. I want to get the next series of books The Story of Civilization by Will and Ariel Durant so bad. But I will have to wait until the 4th That is eighteen days away. I checked them out on Amazon and kept looking at them. I was obsessing over them big time I could not concentrate von anything else
The afternoon wasn’t a complete waste. I chatted with Chocolatechip on messenger. This was Cookie Day. Every year Chocolatechip bakes cookies for family and people in the building. She baked this Christmas season and passed them out to Staff and other tenants. Chocolatechip says this brightens ghet mood and hopes her efforts bring a little holiday cheer.
This year che said Cookie Day was awesome. Ed. One of the maintenance guys personally thanked her. They have a three man crew Ed, Roger, and Greg. Ed thanked Chocolatechip on behalf of the men. This was enough to make her Christmas.
Seeing het in such good spirits greatly improved my mood. Getting dry briefs at last also helped. Then I paid the nurse a nice compliment while she changed me. She gave me a nice big. I sort of needed a hug and that helped me feel better as well.
It is almost time for supper It ought to be good. Menu says they a are serving seasonal pot pie,veggies, and a dinner roll and fresh fruit for desert. I’m not too crazy about their pot pies but I will eat my share. I’m truly grateful I have something to eat.