Not So Good

It’s the end of day 2.  I guess I didn’t do as well as yesterday.  I had cottage cheese and cucumbers around 2, then some friends wanted to go out for dinner.  I tried saying no, but in the end I went.  I was planning on eating a piece of pizza (200cal) but I ended up eating 4 garlic knots along with it.  I don’t even know how many calories are in one of those.  All I kept thinking about through dinner was throwing up.  I knew I was going to do it as soon as I got back to my room.  So I came back, got my shower stuff, went into the toilet stall and puked up everything, then showered.  I feel better now, but I feel shitty for having to do it.

So I’m still contemplating the party.  He imed me earlier to say that he got compliments on his haircut and to say that he’d talk to me later about the party.  I imed him when I got back from dinner and he didn’t say anything.  Then he put up an angry away message.  So I don’t know what his problem is, but I hate being ignored.  So I showered, but now I think I’m just going to stay in.  I don’t really feel like putting a costume on anyway.  Plus, all I’m missing out on are endless hours of beirut and thousands of calories.

One of my best friends is pissed at me and I have no idea what I did.  I talked to her the other night, but I wasn’t really in a good mood.  All I said was that I’d talk to her tomorrow and she told me to feel better.  Then the next day she had an away message up about people being ridiculous and stupid, and she was ignoring me.  I don’t know how, but I seem to manage to piss people off without even trying.  Just a couple weeks ago, I had two guys mad at me because I wouldn’t sleep with them.  How is that something to get angry over?  I don’t know.  I know I have many mood swings, but I don’t take them out on people.

So to end this entry, I’ll estimate my calories for today. 

1. Cottage cheese: 116
2. cucumbers: 8
3. pizza: 200
4. 4 garlic knots ??

I don’t know how much to count since I threw up dinner.  I guess I’ll count half of it because I can’t just pretend like I didn’t it.  So, 324?  I don’t know.  I guess that’s what I’ll say.