Failure

I had to read my last entry to see where I left off.  I have been an utter failure.  I didn’t lose any weight from that ‘not eating’ diet; in fact I gained some weight.  So now, I have about 14lbs to lose to get to the weight I was at last August.  It’s weird how 14lbs is making me so mad.  None of my clothes fit, I never want to put cute clothes on anymore because they don’t look good on me, argh!  I need to do something seriously drastic because I’m getting really pissed at myself.  I know what I need to do, I just need to fucking do it!

Phew, okay.  Take a breath.  I am going to start eating a bigger breakfast.  Yes, I am aware that breakfast is the most important meal of the day.  I need to stop skimping on it solely because it’s easy.  It makes me ravenous by about 5:00 pm and I could easily finish off a tray of Oreos.  So basically, I need to up my water intake, eat a bigger breakfast, and start walking.  Three things, pretty simple, just need to work them in.  I know that going on a diet will never work because I love to cook.  I’ve tried living on Lean Cuisines but I just get no satisfaction from pushing buttons on the microwave.  I need to stir and bake and broil.

• More water
• Bigger breakfast (bigger than my Luna Bar and water)
• After-dinner walks

Sounds simple enough right?  I need to keep telling myself that damnit!  This is going to be my day tomorrow:

Breakfast: oatmeal and fresh fruit or egg white omlet with fresh fruit
Shower, nail appointment, barnes and noble (coffee with soy milk), grocery store
Lunch: To be determined
Dinner: Pepper and egg sandwiches on whole wheat bread

I’m going to buy a new water bottle so I can carry one that I like.  And so I can monitor my water intake.  ::sigh:: Alright, wish me luck.