Eating Today, but mostly a rant

Sometimes I think I have an anger problem.  I seriously get so pissed at Alex for the smallest things.  Well, I don’t think stealing my car for a day is small, but still.  I’m still really aggravated with him and I have my car back.  I want to drink, but I have to wait for him.  He’s writing a paper and I told him to hurry because he owes me.

I need to deal with my feelings towards him.  But not when I’m drunk.  Then I just end up crying and yelling at him.

Sooooo, anyway.  Food.  I’m watching tv and they’re talking about McDonalds.  It sounds yummy.  I ate around 11am today.  I had a bagel with cream cheese, a hash brown and hot chocolate.  Pig, I know.  Then, at like 4:30 I had half a cup of soup and a small salad.  I ate a few bites of pie.  Again, I’m a pig, I know.  I calculated it on FitDay and it was like 1300 calories.  I guess that’s normal, but it’s a lot for me.

I did go to the gym today, so woot to that.  I did the elliptical for 28mins (the weight loss setting) and I lifted weights for a little while.  I didn’t want to lift too much because that seems to be the reason why I don’t lose weight.  Or the fact that I eat too much, I don’t know.

I’m still feeling really pissy.  He’d better not blow me off after he had my car all day.  I don’t even know what I’ll do if he does.

Maybe it’s my period making me emotional.  But I still think he’s being a dick.

Okay, so I might as well tell you the whole story so someone can tell me whether I’m out of my mind or not.  Yesterday, he called and asked if I could pick him up at the garage because he had brought his car in.  On my way there, my car was acting weird, so once I got him, we stopped at Sunoco and bought antifreeze.  We filled the radiator with water and ran the car for 10 mins, like it said.  In the process, we drove to his place.  We went inside to hang out while the car sat and cooled down again.  Stuff started happening as it usually does, but his roommate came home.  So he asked if we could go hang out at my place.  I said alright and he said we would finish my car.  So, we "hung out" for a little while.  At like 5, I said I was going to dinner with friends and he asked if I could drive him home quick.  I said I didn’t have time, but if he didn’t want to walk, he could take my car.  I also said I wanted it back that night.  He said great because he didn’t want to walk and he would drive back to give me my car later.

Sooooo, then, he ims me last night around like 11 saying he’s doing work and asked if I really needed it that night.  He promised he wouldn’t drive it anywhere but to campus because there’s only water in the radiator.  He also said he would stop by my room around 1 and drop off my keys while I was in class.

So, I come back around 2 and there are no keys.  I imed him and asked where my keys were.  He said he had a funny story; that he and one of his brothers went to get food.  I said I asked him not to drive it anywhere and he said it was fine.  I said, but that’s besides the point.  So then, he said he was going to drain the radiator and put in the antifreeze and bring it back, but first he had to stop at the house to help with the basement.  I said okay, yet again, because he said he wouldn’t be that long.  9p.m. rolls around and I still haven’t heard from him.  He finally ims me around like 9:30 and asks if I want my car.  Do I want my fucking car?  No, you asshole.

His reason for not bringing it after going to the house?  He forgot and took a nap.  How can you fucking forget?  Wouldn’t getting INTO my fucking car jog your memory?  I’m not an idiot.  I know it was intentional.

So here I am, waiting to see if he actually gets back to me about drinking.  He said he was going to call, and I said right, like you brought my car back.  And he still said he was going to call.  So he’d better.  Or I’ll cut his balls off.  No, I really wouldn’t do that.

I would.