When will it stop?

I’m up at 4 something in the morning. After restlessly tossing and turning I decide to get up. Th massive blob still sleeps soundlessly and I can’t. When will it stop. Why would you hold something you love hostage for your own selfish needs? You smother her with laziness and grief. Why not set her free and if she returns it was meant to be. He can be a nice guy but not nice for me.You’re hurting more than one person here. A total of 6. Me and my 3, the love that’s waiting for me and the love that’s waiting for you. The kids should be up soon. If not now. I hear movement . It’s sad when the only thing that greets you with a smile is an animal who can’t. Breath stinks, cavities run amuck on his teeth. Won’t take a shower and craps like 3-4 times a day. And they all stink too. Nothing but horrible times. In the middle of a family tornado he wants to stop at Walgreens and get me a little balloon and card that he fills out at the counter. For an anniversary that didn’t exist. We have not been together for the past 2 months but he wants to celebrate our anniversary. I’ll have to finish this later.         Bisous