Sho’ nuff.

I think I’m getting a crush on Coach Fernando. I find it weird that I have a crush on people I fantasied about. I need to get off it. I’m just so desperate that I’ll never find a boyfriend. For that fact, I’ll never get married. I know I shouldn’t be focused on that but I want someone to share life with. I’m going to get some money from J to get on Match.com. Maybe I’ll have some luck there. I know in G there is no one of quality. But off my depressing fact that I’m still single we have a new edition to our family. His name is Shadow and I call him Shadow because everytime I turn around, he’s right there. He’s a Lab-Retriever so I call him a Labtriever and he’s all black save some few spots of fur. I taught him to sit and we’re working on down and all that stuff. Maggie is still bad mouthing me. All this over me maturing. I have no time for this and her drama. I am so glad I’m not tangled up in their drama anymore. I have a new dig so no more CPS at my door every other day and all that jazz. I saw my hairdresser today and she saw me and kind of told me her and Maggie hasn’t spoke and all that mess. But who cares. I’m free and it feels so good. The kids like the new place and I kind of do too. The neighborhood isn’t that bad even if it is still in G and I guess the neighbors are o.k. Area is quiet and clean. I think I have the liveiest bunch of kids on the block. I can’t seem to shake the fact that Fernando is so patient with my son. He takes him and works with him personally and he puts him in time-out and seems to really like want to help him. I think after this, I won’t put him back in class. My oldest goes for his Yellow belt Friday and I’m so exicited. He really likes this and I want to support him in all that he does. I just hope it gives him something to work toward. He’s not that bad either. At karate. I think I see great things in his future. I just wish I could see great things in my own. J seems to think we still have a sot but I’m not interested in being with him. I want someone else. I need someone else. Oh well dear friend.