Just when I thought it was over…

Just when I thought it was over, I hit my old Yahoo bookmark and there it was. The story he so-called wrote and dedicated to me. The name was changed- again and this time it was back to Twin Tre’. My heart sanked. There I was back to feeling things for him I shouldn’t. I even made mention to my sister about how you want to be with someone so bad but you know it won’t work. I have never loved the way I use to for him again and I’m afraid I’ll never find it again. In fact, I’m sure of it. Then, today while visiting Mom, his best friend is there and I run into him. Just more to compound the pain. James is still professing love but I got him. We prayed together for God to show us if we’re meant. I know He will. He is the one man I can trust. But the kids and I had a great time at the park Sun. These stupid kids had on a Jason mask and kept scaring A’Rion so I gave him a hammer and told him if he gets into 2 feet of you, hit him in his nuts and yes a 3 yr old can weild a hammer. The little prick just refused to take off the mask for a 3 yr old so I said hit that white boy in his fucking head. Then he repeated me and I had to laugh. The nerve of him! Scaring an innocent child and mocking him. I bet he left the area!! Messing with my baby! Mom is mad because I can’t give her twenty bucks. She has no idea how hard I have it. I have to pay the bills. I can’t buy me anything new cuz the kids need. Just so she can go to the boat. I don’t even gamble!!! On my dime, she wants to do it! I’d rather waste the money on food!!!! God has to get me out of this.       Bisous mon conifdante.