Damn the PL.

Well, so far so good with Little Panther and I. He’s a Saggitarius did I mention that? So yes he is and it’s driving me crazy. Do I love him? I would have to say I have love for him but it’s not love. I do like him immensely but IDK it’s love. He is a great guy and we are never short on convo but I often wonder if he’s so happy, why does he need me? He doesn’t say he loves me like he use to although he implies it. I just want him to be on one side and not both at the same time. One minute he loves me the next he wants to get over me! I mean damn! If you want me just say so. He gets mad when I say I’m going out with other guys and I’m meeting other guys but yet he tells me he wants to get over me. It really is getting on my nerves. I know you love me or maybe he doesnt IDK. What I have planned to do is not talk to him for like 3 days just to engage his reaction then I’ll decide if I will choose to continue with him. Shame to because I have tickests to see Wicked and I want him to come with me. I know my Little Panther loves me but I just want him to be on one side and not switching so much. He is so FICKLE by his own admission which honestly I don’t mind. It gives me the freedom to move around as I choose. I hope he doesn’t think he’s the only person and certainly not the only married person I know! Oh my Little Panther, what am I going to do with you!! Now to my weight loss. I’m 232 and doing good! I am so proud. The weight is just dropping! By next year, I’ll be where I want to be. I can’t wait til I get my new ta-ta’s too. I am on my way! I just hope Little Panther is around long enough to see me. Why do I even care!?! Because I like him and I want him to see what he’s missing. Is it so wrong to make someone want you?

Oh well. The semester starts in 2 weeks and I’ve yet to buy my books. I have to go back to the bookstore and check for them again so I can get them on line. Not more to say.

Until then.