Adding on again…

So back to the last missing months. My sis lost custody of my neice which we all saw coming to be honest. She was on the news and everything. It hurts me honestly. I did all I could to prevent this from happening. I had her when she was first born when she went through her post-partum. I still took my neice to give her a break. She chose to continue drinking and doing drugs and now look. It’s been 5 months and I’ve seen my neice only twice. I miss her so much. She’s gotten so big too! She’s using words and is just beautiful! I hate my sister. She should have changed if not for the sake of her health than for the sake of her child. So, me trying to do the sisterly thing, I let her move in with me and I HATE IT!!!! She doesn’t clean up behind herself, and has all these guys coming here to pick her up and what’s worse, she hasn’t stop the drinking or drug use! Not even a court order will prevent her from quitting! I think I have a right to hate her now. Atleast straighten up for a moment til your get your child back! Think of her and how much she misses us! She loves my dog and I know she misses him! So, before I throw my laptop in disgust, I’ll change the subject! I can’t think of anything! All my homework is done so that’s good. The day went well. Weather was nice and sunny. I didn’t see my crush but tomorrow, he’ll be there! OMG!!!! This guy is the hottest thing walking! I know I have my HP but still, I had a crush on him before I started dating him! If he would ever give me the time of day……. I wouldn’t take it. I really do like my HP and I know I kid around but I wouldn’t do that to him. He says his mom likes me but she thinks I’m too quiet. She really doesn’t know me! I was observing her the entire time and I swear she’s bipolar! Back to the reservist. So, he’s in the reserve and Tuesday, he asked to borrow a pen and he sat next to me!!!!!! I was like soooooo excited! Of course I had to play it cool. I did. He is so intelligent and his accent is soooooooo sexy! I could just swim in his eyes for years! I know right! If I had the courage I would but alas! There is a human under this jovial skin of mine that fears rejection and thus prevents me from making a move. That is still true but add to that my HP now and all i can do now is  hope for a shot at him next time.

Well, that’s the official catch up. You have now been caught up.