IT’S A BOY!

it’s been a while.

can’t remember if i wrote in the last entry, but i can feel the baby move, ALL THE TIME! little thing is crazy!  first felt it on july 20th, but i think i could kind of feel it before then, just didn’t really know if i was imagining it.  feels like when your stomach turns.

we went in on aug 4th for the ultrasound, and after about 45 minutes, we found out it was a boy. joe was happy as can be, and i cried, of course. the ultrasound lady looked at me and said "are you gonna cry?" and i responded, "uh-huh…but i was gonna cry either way"

the lady and her assistant tried to comfort me by telling me that it would be ok, and that he was healthy, and what not… i didn’t really care, i was mad the rest of the day, and just wanted to start bawling.

then yesterday my boss brought in her grandson, who’s 2 months old.  he was so god damn cute that i don’t really care if i have a boy or a girl anymore, i’m just happy that it’s gonna be a baby, and it’s gonna be mine!

*god damn, i’m such a softie*

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in other news, the loan company sent us a rejection letter, stating that we don’t qualify for a loan. but i called and talked to them and said that we could come up with a co-signer, which is joe’s grandpa, and they think that most likely we will qualify (we, meaning i, because joe has shitty credit) and the realtor talked to me on tuesday, wednesday? i don’t remember… but he was in contact with the mortgage company, and would let us know what he finds out… so yet again we’re in a waiting game. and i still havn’t told my mom we plan on moving.

i think she is catching on though, and just hasn’t asked. once i find out FOR SURE, i will tell her… and lexa is ready to move in here at any time…. now we just have to catch up on the bills, and we’ll be ready to go.

i still owe $250 to the gas company, and $120 to the water… but i’ve slowly been catching up. hopefully by september we’ll be done???

i hope to move by september. i don’t wanna be huge and moving all the shit.

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registered for classes at rctc for the fall. going for medical transcription. should have done that last year, and i could have been out of my crap job by now… instead i went for administrative assistant, which i wound up not liking at all, and quit after a semester… besides the fact that i was BROKE and couldn’t afford to take out any more loans… but this time i might get a grant (which would cover at least one semester… not including books) so that will be nice… and i would only acrue about $3000 more in debt… but have the program completed HOPEFULLY!

school starts on aug 24th, and 2 of my classes are only half, or less, of the semester. (one is 3 saturdays, one is 8 class periods)

and he rest are online, so if i go into labor early, i should still be able to finish the semester… assuming i’m not completely out of my mind! and joe helps me with baby…(i hope his work lets him take paternity leave, otherwise i’m done for)

and, also assuming i’m not out of my mind, i’ll start again in the spring (which is mid january, i think) so i should be able to get it completed by next fall… but 2 classes that i NEED, aren’t offered, as far as i can tell, at all… so i don’t know if they will be offered in the spring?  either way, they are a part 1 and 2 course, so i’ll need to complete one before the next… and even if i do it in the spring, i can’t finish until fall 10… so, i’m stuck wiping ass for atleast another year…… and with a wage freeze, i’m pretty excited to work for low wages, all the while ready to kill everyone and everything in my way……..

ok, only on some days. and no, it has nothing to do with my pregnancy… i’ve hated this place for nearly 2 years… and it all stemmed from a new boss…

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ne who.

joe will be playing with a band called Cimmerian, they’re from St. Paul, and are really good! he’s filling in for the bassist, cuz i guess he went crazy and left the band stranded… they’re playing the Loud and Local Fest, the end of the month… and playing at The Rock night club… where signed bands usually play.. kinda nuts!

i guess there will be record labels there too, ready to sign new good bands… and he said it is gonna be really hard to go back to his other band if Cimmerian gets signed… because in my opinion, they are that good!

they played with joe’s band in june in rochester… and they should have played last, cuz they kicked ass.

but what do i know?

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another long day of work. then ONE WHOLE DAY OFF! yippee.