This Year

This Year..

I cried

I lied

I laughed

I almost died

I fell

and am still alive

because I tried

I asked myself why?

I almost lost myself

When my life is so precious

and theres still so much to learn

Ints on going

Life cannot be stopped

Life cannot be measured in a year

or through someone elses eyes

Cant be made or broken

by one single tear

Forged bonds

Sang songs

Had people leave me cold

Let people sell my soul

Ran away

Begged you to stay

Stood in the way

Made up my face

in a way to escape pain

Used a job as a cover

Though it would help me recover

Put my life in the hands of another

Only to have them smash it repeatedly  on the ground

Muffled my cries

Tried to stay silent and not make a sound

Until I just couldnt bite down on the bit no more

My mind just couldnt erase and repress

So it just started to obsess

Couldnt let a man caress me no more

Without remebering your hands hurting me

The same hands that tried to love me

Comfort me

not done yet….in progress