Stoning

 Stoning 

My heart is the only thing exposed 
And you keep stoning it to death 
My faith left my soul 
My love slowly died for you 
I couldn’t respect you 
Or myself 
I turned hard 
And cold 
Like your insides 
Became like you 
I was left spinning 
In a daze 
Ruining everything in my life 
When you weren’t around 
It rained all the time 
No more sunshine 
My light was gone 
Beat down and sick 
You erased it all 
Now I start from scratch 
What you did was so cold and cruel 
Had me fighting a battle that wasn’t my own 
Pulled out all my ugliness 
Laid it bare 
Was it really that easy 
To allow you to break me? 
I clung to you 
Like a child 
You abandoned me 
Like my father 
You cruely left 
You cut the cord 
Left me in shreds 
Half of what I used to be 
Wanting to hold onto what could’ve been 
I became invisible 
When all I wanted to be was seen 
You acted like you didn’t know me 
And I really didn’t know who you were
I fell in love with plastic 
Not the real you 
The shield 
The disguise 
I fell ripped off 
Exposed 
Though now I know 
Just a challenge 
I was your hard sell 
Wish I never met you 
Because all you did was tear me down 
Keep me off balance 
In this crystal palace 
Everything was out of reach 
Fooled me good 
Just cheap thrills 
Cheap amusement 
I had to get off the ride 
Didn’t know I would fall from so high 
I am starting to resent myself 
For feeling so weak 
For letting you in 
Thrown away like trash 
In the used items bin 
Never again 
A part feels lucky 
I never got all the way in 
Your twisted world 
Nothing ever made sense 
Even when you said I was your girl 
Went way too fast 
I laughed it off 
Didn’t recognize the signs 
I wish of would have honoured this thing called love 
My body and my pride 
I wish I could’ve let my soul decide 
Learned that it’s not a joke 
Need to protect my heart 
From getting torched 
Need to cover my face from the stones that fly