me and my sister

I was hurt because you never told dad why you didnt go. You had the same reason as me for not going because of dads gf Ellie and you choose not to disclose that to anyone and I felt betrayed because it made me look like I was being "difficult". I lied for you but when it started causing problems you choose to not tell the truth. From now on please tell people your own excuses for whatever reason and I wont be mad. But if I have anything to do with it and you remain to make it look like I am the only one who didnt go for a truthful reason than I will be angry of course.

This is the email I sent my sister last night. It was really bothering esp. since she is trying to pretend nothing happened. I am usually more skillful and soft so I guess my email is a bit harsh. here is what she said in reply:

It was ur choice to give whatever excuse u wanted not mine. I never told him why u weren’t going u did I only stuck up for u when I talked to him. I also never asked u to give an excuse for me. Yea I hate ellie obviously but I was sick the whole wknd and didn’t even go back to work until tuesday. U looked difficult bc u hung out with her the wknd before so u could get money from dad u said it urself and I still stuck up for u when he said that. u need to chill out and pick ur battles better life is too short to get hung up on stupid shit. I’m not apologizing for anything so say no more I agree to disagree now let it go

Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network

She wasnt sick the whole weekend because she asked me to go shopping with her instead. she was the first one to tell me that she didnt want to go if my dads 22 year old gf was going to be there and she DID ask me to lie for her; I mean it sounds so stupid in ways but I have a long history with my sister pushing me around. She uses my honesty against me and her lies sound better than my truths in the end. She told me that she wants to get money off my dad for a trip to europe shes going on soon but she wanted ME to ask instead so she doesnt look bad. I just feel like the ultimate scapegoat a lot of the time and I am sick of it. She lies and is so sneaky all the time and I am more upfront and honest about things. ugh. I just need time to cool off still and figure out how to deal with this all. she basically told me to shut up and my reasons for being angry at her are not legitimate. I just feel minimized. i dont mean this but right now i just want to strangle her i am filled with so much hate and anger at her right now. there is just so much i held back from how i feel about how she treats me sometimes but i dont because she has physically assaulted mme in the past and has verbally attacked me in the past. i am sick of her and my dad at the moment. i just need a break from them. i am not going to respond i dont think its just a waste of fucking time.