Its Britney Bitch!

SoOOoooo, Just got back from the Britney concert. It was fun, the seats werent the best but it dont matter because I love my Britz! Dj Pauly D was there, we got there a bit late I guess and didnt see his whole set but I was pumped! I didnt think he was going to come to Toronto.

I liked Nikki too but I am not a huge fan, but I did come away with a new song of hers to put on my ipod. Its called Save Me, its a real nice ballad I think. Her set was a bit too theatrical, there was sort of a storyline but it was hard to follow because everyone was screaming. So that kind of failed. Drake came out for a bit too to sing Moment 4 Lyfe, everyone was going wild, but I didnt really care.. I mean hes from Toronto, he was dressed like a bum and had no stage presence really. His music is alright but I really dont follow him much.

My weekend was okay. Went to the same stupid bar twice this weekend. It wasnt too bad but still I guess I could have been more original. lol. I went to the beach on Saturday and the weather was beautiful. I joined this womens group awhile ago so I met a few girls from there. I was supposed to go to this club for this girl I knows birthday, but like as it got like 20 minutes before I was leaving I texted her to let her know I was leaving and where should I meet her and all but never got a response. I mean if I went with another friend I would have definately gone but I wanted to avoid a potentially awkward situation….I really didnt feel like bending over backwards for an aquentience.

So I went out with this other girl I met through the group, we hit it off real well at first but there was a few things about me that annoyed me she was really hyper and would talk and flirt with anyone within earshot, she is a lot older than me too so I kind of thought it was a bit immature. Shes not from the city so I guess she was like excited but it was like every five seconds wed be walking down the street and she would be like call me to guys and make some silly comment. At first it was like funny but it got old fast. I drank a bit too much and I was kind of a bitch towards her a little bit I asked her to buy me a drink, I dont really know what got into me to say that. She never did and when she asked me to buy her one I felt kind of put on the spot and didnt end up doing it. Well she sent me this whole long text message about how annoyed she was at me because of what I had said and how I didnt buy her a drink when I said I was going to and how the guy she went with paid my cover and she felt used? (I paid for my own cover) Because i was waiting for them at this one bar and paid for the cover at this other bar but I said it sucked so she told me to leave so we could go to another one, but i said you know I paid cover just come have one drink or whatever and lets just feel it out for a bit, she said no dont worry I give you back the money you spent on cover just leave and well go somewhere else. Well I asked her for the money for cover (a little bit bluntly because I was tipsy at that point) and she was pretty offended which I can kind of understand but kind of not since she did offer initially. But anyways I apologized for the way I said it and about the buying me a drink thing.  she just said oh thats okay dont worry about it, its all over and done with.. But it bothered me because she brought it up twice than would just be like oh dont worry about it…so I dont know I am getting bad vibes from the girl sort of she wants me to come celebrate her bday but I dont know if I will, I may but I just felt like we didnt know eachother too well and if someone I didnt know kind of pissed me off I would probably let it go and not mention it but keep it in mind or just see it as a red flag. But thats my way, the way she was so up front kind of put me off. other wise shes okay I guess but just a bit intense and much at times.

I know I am not the best at girl friendships either, I dont have many and the ones I have in the past have been really rocky. I find it easier to get along with guys. I am a bit stubborn and independent a lot of the time I just get so fusterated with the group think mentality and just wanna go chill and do my own thing on my own terms without having to compromise and be patient. Not a huge fan of big groups because of that…More of a loner type person or a one on one type person. I find it more comfortable.

I met a guy at the bar last night and I took him home I have never really done that before, prolly not the smartest idea but it turned out alright. I wasnt really into the guy much. He was an irish guy with a cute accent and he was tall and pretty sweet. He wasnt bad looking I guess but not my usual type. I will never speak to him again. It feels weird because usually with any hook ups I have there are some way to contact the person, we will exchange numbers or whatever. but this guy is going back to Ireland in two days, he may come back to Canada but who knows and who cares? I mean at first it bothered me, but to be honest I mean I wasnt really into him, things happened the way they happened for a reason and meeting someone at a bar and hooking up right away does not usually end up in a long lasting romance, although I did see a guy kind of seriously after thinking I would never see him again. I am not good with closure I guess and its weird to think that I did something like that with someone i will most likely never see again and thats that. It bugs me a bit not that  I wish I had his number but that its boiling down to that for the most part with guys lately. I kind of crave a bit of I dont know stability and companionship. I mean I am fooling around with this one guy I have seen a few times and well watch movies and hang out but hes made it pretty clear he doesnt want anything serious and I am starting to feel like I am falling for him a bit, as much as I can. So I am thinking to myself, do I break it off completely or let it run its course hoping either I will change my mind or he will. Or just try to keep this wall up between the guy and me, an emotional barrier.

One Good thing I did at work:

I Built good rapport with some of my cooks at the member bbq we had on Friday. Which was a lot of fun really.

Anyways gonna go,

Ciao