hero

the day we found out

we still had feelings

we still thought you cared

it became so obvious that day

we all learned the truth

you werent our hero

or even our father

you never wanted to know us at all

this woman by the pool was the one you wanted to know

she was part of your real life

so we all cried for what seemed like an eternity

but the next day

we werent supposed to know

when i tripped and stubbed my toe

and i started bleeding all over the floor

my sister started screaming at me

and said stop crying

and fucking toughen up

since than day thats all i have done

braced myself and sheilded myself from all the pain

i became very numb

had to when you have fists flying at you

in her rages

and your brother does the same

trying to kill you

mistakenly thinking you are the one who caused all the harm

thats what you were good at doing dad

creating a distraction from it all

making a villian out of us all

too bad

cause i honestly though i deserved all the pain

that i did something to make people mad

that maybe it was just by living

now i know it cant be undone

but at least i know its not my fault