fun day

Went with my friend out and about today. It was nice..

I went to my excellent dr today. I am really glad I went. Finally went on my own instead of taking a ride. I am learning my independence again.

After that went with my friend and went to eat at this really nice authentic pizza place i have ALWAYS wanted to try. It was amazingly good. Glad we went.

Went to this nice supermarket thats realy cool in the city. got a nice sour cherry cupcake. They have the nicest cup cake and foods there. and a lot of free samples.

drinking this ginger root beer my friend gave me right now.

after the supermarket she locked her keys in her car and was all like how do i get into my car? but it was a jeep so it really wasnt that hard. i have long ass arms so i was able to unzip the soft top and unlock it. I saved the day! whoo. lol my friend does so much for me it was nice to feel like i was being helpful. she treats me a lot to things which is really generous of her since i am low on cash right now. sometimes i feel bad but i always say she offers and i do pay when i can. she never seems to resent me for it. i try not to feel too bad about it theres no reason to. she enjoys my company we have fun. we are a lot alike. we have known each other for about a year now. weve grown close. she confides in me now about things i tell her things. i was the first one to open up. eventually she opened up and i respect her for it.

but today she told me she was feeling suicidal a few days ago and told me how she would do it. it alarmed me. i told her to talk to me anytime she feels low. it really scared me. i didnt know what else to say. she went on to say her cousin has done it too. its hereditary sometimes i read omgggggg. i really hope she is okay. she seemed not too bad later. she was going to see her sister. i have never had a friend who has opened up to me about her issues that are similar to mine and all that. so its refreshing but scary. i like to think i am a compassionate kind understanding person. i always hope i can say the right thing. its hard sometimes. knowing whether to listen,give advice,ask questions,be alarmed,take it in stride. friendship maintenance for me is hard sometimes. id like to think its most of the time circumstances with most of my friends. I mean my closest guy friend we text thats about it. we had periods of time when we were closer. when i lived closer to him. when he was single and not working, in the summer. now he has a fiance and a lot of his time is with her. shes cheating on him. they are having issues. i know she isnt the one for him and doesnt seem to care for him and respect him as much as he adores her and caters to her. but thats his life his issue. i am not vocal about it anymore. i think maybe thats why i wasnt there when he proposed to her. because all his guy friends were there and i think because i am a girl and i told him that when i met her i didnt like some of her rude behaviours i thought. i dont think i will be invited to the wedding. it hurts to know that we may never be close again. i almost wish his relationship would fail. and i feel bad about that because i know its selfish although i know that the relationship is just not very healthy for him. i have had a lot of unhealthy relationships too though. and i had to figure it out for myself that it wasnt any good. no one told me though because i was very secretive of all my past relationships plus they were very early so i wanted to wait to introduce them to people.

anyways today was good. watching being erica now, it was filmed in toronto and it is actually quite good. most canadian television shows i dont realy give a chance. (except trailer park boys) but this one is meaningful and like my roomate said cause she watches it too, its like a therapy session each episode. i like the main character she reminds me of jennifer aniston. so real and down to earth the average girl really in a lot of ways but more complicated than she seems in the show.

anyways back to that.