A little bit brighter!

 A little bit brighter

 
So today I am glad I went to my employment counsellor! 
 
She found two jobs perfect for me! One is exactly the same job I had a year ago before the assault, with a different company and more money and similar hours and the other is less hours still not bad pay and its in the apt building I used to live in! Which isn’t bad because I grew a bit of an affinity for my area and the pay is still not bad and its more of a casual position. All I need is something to supplement my income anyway. And with both wages its not bad. So I have typed up a résumé already I am tweeking it a bit for the first one than have to edit it for the second one. The dead lines are in a week but I am basically done already. Just organic! Is the word I use, for my life I just think that most things won’t be as hard as they should be. The process of change or your goals will always be at the right time and seem natural. It won’t always be easy but it won’t be extremely hard either. 
 
Because lately the job search thing had been really uninspiring and hard and I was just not finding anything and wasnt really putting much effort and making alot of excuses. But boom! Go to the counsellor two great jobs I am qualified for right away. Both cooking jobs and both good pay and hours. So cool! 
 
It’s like when I quit smoking I knew it was time and I knew It had to be done. I smoked a cigarette and knew it would be my last than I called smokers helpline and got support for three months and now its been four months! I still crave though and its tough here and there but not nearly as tough as I thought it would be! It’s more natural now that I don’t smoke. 
 
So things are a bit brighter.  Still feeling kind of loserish ( no friends to be seen all busy or far away or flaking off, no job or bf) but I know that in two months its back to school and less than a month ill be alot busier hopefully with some type of job, maybe a new guy or my old guy and maybe some new friends as I have met a few new people already and I have some plans comming up with them. So we will see….;) 
 
I am watching The Notebook right now, I remeber my sister dragged me to this when I was a teenager and I rolled my eyes and protested because I hated romantic movies but the end she was laughing and teasing me because I was crying! Now I still love it!