12/07/2013

 Improv 2

 
So tonight I finally psyched myself up enough to go to improv. I had been telling myself for two weeks now I would go to it but would chicken out and put it off. Plus I was super super depressed and tired I am glad I waited. I think I was too weighed down by stuff to really be in the moment and have fun. 
 
It was alright mostly guys and men this time. Which sucked I like when there is a mix. There was three women. I had a better time last time and was more on I think last time. 
 
But it was still a lot of fun. A few of the things I said got momentum and were used a lot. I can be pretty creative and clever I noticed. But I had a hard time with the individual scenes I think it has to do with the person you are doing it with. If I don’t feel comfortable w the person it’s harder or if the chemistry is off. Or if one of you is a lot stronger it’s hard. 
 
I didn’t wanna be paired up with this one guy but I did and I was like omg! But it was ok in the end and he was friendlier afterwards. 
 
The good thing about improv is people are pretty open. They are friendly and easy going mostly so you don’t feel like that bad afterwards. Plus you get to watch and laugh at other people too. But in the end it comes down to the people in the classes. I didn’t really care for the crowd this time. Last crowd I chatted a bit more with people afterwards. Maybe that’s what happens though when there is a bunch of old dudes in the group. It was kind of intimidating at first it all being mostly men but once you get in the moment it’s not too bad. But I prefer more women. 
 
I might go back In two weeks the teacher is a good teacher. Smart and gives feedback on the skits and how to do better. It’s a beginners course so everyone is pretty new to it and just wanting to do it for fun. It’s really cheap and it’s drop in and close to where I live. 
 
I want to see if I can find another improv class to try out too. 
 
I also did a speech a few days back for Dec 6th, a commemorative event for violence against women. Where I spoke out about my experience with abuse and I was very nervous too because I have been so reclusive lately. I was really nervous and shaking the whole time but I did pretty good towards the end and my counsellor was there to supprt me. 
 
I got offered a volunteer position as a literacy tutor in February by one of the organizers. Because the event was held at a literacy learning centre. She was impressed by my writing skills and offered me a position. Sounds pretty cool. I would be up for it. 
 
I am really thinking about starting to work again, part time. I have booked an apt with an employment counsellor next week. I am not sure how helpful she will be because sometimes these counsellors just help you fix your resume up but don’t really help you find or connect you with a job. I have no idea what I want to do. I am hoping that something shows up for me a good opportunity. I find most of the jobs that I have had end up happening g through connections or someone else finding me an opportunity and applying for it. 
 
I want something with a decent wage, not a lot of stress, flexible hours, more independent. Even a seasonal job isn’t to bad maybe. 
 
I am starting to knit again. I am going to knit up a blanket. 
 
Life’s been kind of boring lately. Nothing that exciting.