Somedays it’s just not worth talking with people…

… and today was one of those days.

Everyone, yes all the people, who contacted me today complained about their lives and how terrible they have it and how they are pissed off at this or that.  This person is using them, and someone else is treating them unfairly.

After the first two, I started telling people point blank what I think, and that pissed a lot of people off.  I even lost two “friends” today.  Albeit if they got upset because I pointed out they have low self-esteem; and depending on the person a few other things, they weren’t friends, to begin with.

It is 6 p.m. now, and I am not answering my phone, looking at any incoming messages until tomorrow morning.  I’m done helping people for the day.  As an empath, I can only take so much shit from people while trying to help them.  Time to go smudge and meditate for a bit.

Three people used “spiritual warfare” as a reason why they were having a bad day.  As someone who has experienced it first hand and knows many others who have, none of the three was experiencing it.  Everyone today was just not taking responsibility for their action of saying “yes” to things they didn’t want to do and getting upset at how their plans changed.

I understand feelings get hurt, but fuck, that doesn’t mean you blame someone else for it.  My feelings get hurt all the time.  Sometimes it’s my fault, other times it’s theirs, other times it is just miscommunication.  Take the time to figure out which it is and then solve the problem.

Take guilt as an example.  No one can make you feel guilty; it’s how you react to a situation.  It’s something within yourself that causes the guilt.

I get so tired of people of faith telling me they know their religions when they don’t truly understand the essence of the teachings.  I’ve always found it ironic when Buddhist kill people.  It makes me wonder if I’m missing something about that religion.

I’ve always gotten a kick out of people telling me I’m wrong without knowing my background. Sure, with my brain damage I may not be able to always put forth the best argument in the moment, but that doesn’t make me wrong.  A weak argument can be just as correct as a strong argument.

Someone made my 7-day “talking with their mouth full on the phone” ban this evening.  I’ve warned this person several times.  I wasn’t in the mood to have them yell back at me; with their mouth full while telling me how wrong I am about what I’m saying and calling me names but not once challenging the facts.  It may be time to cut this person from my life completely.  I can only give so much to a person, and if they don’t move forward, I have to say goodbye and godspeed.

Most days, I’m, very humble with how I give advice. It’s soft and comforting.  Today, I just couldn’t do that.  From the start, it was bitch and moan day.  I can’t always coddle people.  I have problems; sometimes I need help.  Most people in my life forget that.

When they do help, what I generally get in return is platitudes, fortune cookie wisdom.  I get mad and explain how that phrase doesn’t help solve the problem, and they wonder why I’m being so rude to them.  Yet, they couldn’t put in an effort to help by doing more than putting a second into their thought.

Now that I’m grounded I have decided to not take any calls or answer any messages tomorrow either.  I have things to do, and self-made drama isn’t one of them.

One person called me 19 times and left at least one text message between calls.  I’ll look at the messages tomorrow.  My phone is now off until Tuesday morning.

Today I had a “loud and proud” Christain tell me that I can not move to Morroco because it’s full of Muslims who would kill me because I’m not one of them.  She actually forbade me.  I laughed, pointed out that one of my best friends is Moroccan and I know first hand it’s a beautiful country, which is why it’s on my top ten to-move-to list.  A list which I’m hoping by the time I get back from Hilton Head will be shortlisted to three.

Despite all this negativity and drain on me, it wasn’t all bad.

Dinner was good.  I tried a new cheese, broccoli and rice recipe and it was delicious.

In between berating, I was able to get some small things done.  Still, have a lot to clean, but there is no rush, so a few things a day is a good pace.

OD2 is back to a reasonable speed which is terrific.  I’m sure @thediarymaster and the team have been working hard.  I hope people sometimes remember to thank them for all the hard work they’re doing.  I know a lot of people complain, once in a while it’s nice to send a thank you letter as well.  It will help make both of you smile.