9:45 appointment with death?
Medhia has an appointment at 9:45 to the vet. Part of me hopes some miracle, part of me doesn’t. Of course, she ate this morning when I gave her some food. It wasn’t much at all. Maybe a teaspoon full.
It is visible she is no longer comfortable. And when I fell asleep at 4 a.m., she made another round of litterbox trips. I found one large clump; where Tigger usually pees, and a whole bunch of tiny marble sized balls in Medhia’s box of choice.
I could have gotten her in at 8:45, but that seemed too early. I’m trying my best to delay what’s about to happen while still moving forward to make it happen.
I feel like I want to throw up. In typical me fashion, I now wish I made the earlier appointment. One of these days I’ll stop beating myself up about a lot of the decision I make.
For now, I’m just going to watch and pet the beautiful Medhia sleep and pet her soft fur. She will get lots of “I love yous”, and whatever else I can come up with so she knows she’s loved.
I’m so sorry 🙁 I always sort of wish that my pets would just pass on their own and not make me have to make that decision, because it’s the hardest decision ever! *hugs*
@pinkett thank you. I wish she could have passed on her own as well, but she was so sick. It was an easy decision, just hard to accept. She was so sick and starting to have some pain.
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We will be thinking of her and you, hoping for the best for both of you.
That’s appreciated @thediarymaster. It was a tough day but things are slowly getting easier.
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@Axalotal: I am praying, and thinking loving thoughts for/to, Medhia, and you. It’s very difficult, but, please know your love for her is helping her because you love her so much, and she DOES know it!! And, she loves you, too. Big gentle hugs. I’m here, and we are all here for you.
We both appreciate you’re prayers @butterfly4him. They helped make things slightly easier.
@axalotal : I am glad and you’re more than welcome. I am still keeping you in them, cuz I want to do so. hugzzzz.
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I did exactly that @wildrose_2. We spent the night together, and I was there holding her and talking to her as she went to sleep.
Your message made me cry. You are right, she is with me and always will be. I just wish she could let me know she’s okay, as silly as that sounds.
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