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• if our love is tragedy

  July 3, 2013

  well, fuck. I can't seem to get over boy. There's this emotional morass thingy in my mind that I can't seem to transcend. it's really starting to make me very uncomfortable - It's been a couple of years - I should be able to separate myself from him somewhat, but I can't. I still love…

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• superceding god.

  June 24, 2013

  Well, I didn't fail 2 of my classes. I actually didn't fail any of them. I passed two, and I have an incomplete in one of them. That's so great! That's what I get for thinking I know what the future holds. I mean, I've been pretty good at predicting the future thus far (at…

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• 1/3 is actually kinda bad.

  June 14, 2013

  so..... I failed 2 of my 3 college classes. one was by a lot and the other was by like, literally 1 percent. anyway, what I did today. I woke up early (5a) got breakfast, hung out with grant and anita and worked and helped them. I got some cool stuff that I can use…

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• audience

  June 12, 2013

  I don't do this if I don't have an audience... I want to change that. Anyway, I haven't written in a long long time, and I'm about sick of my silence! There have been a lot of developments in my life since my last entry and I am going to list them in a list…

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• my face is melting

  May 18, 2013

  subcutaneous abscess. minor surgery. seeming to improve, hopefully isn't flesh eating bacteria. ciao.

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• here’s an entry

  May 5, 2013

  not a particularly lengthy one. Progress, not perfection. j-

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• mid-course correction

  April 22, 2013

  Hello. I am currently doing some mid-course correction. These past few days have been very.... intense. I mean, I've had some experiences that were so completely profound, that I can't believe that I had them. I very much feel like I've peeled back another layer of the onion at this point, you kn...

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• Good Things

  April 18, 2013

  I am surrounded by good things. I have a good friend base. I learned that tonight when we all went out to eat after the meeting. We all laughed and joked and made light of the deadly disease we share. I am really happy that I met Tanner, because I think he and I share…

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• Fuck Everything And Run

  March 31, 2013

  For me, the program has been a lot about identifying and removing unnecessary fear and anxiety. When you're anxious or fearful about an event - you all of a sudden have to deal with two problems - the anxiety ABOUT the event and then the actual event itself. It's cliche, but the whole 'act your&h...

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