Returning OD user from years ago. Just looking for a place to vent.

Mostly it'll be about

A - a guy I fell in love with years ago that I started talking to again a few years ago

Grandson- basically he is mine cause I have him pretty much every single day.

L - my youngest daughter that is almost 20

P - my oldest daughter that lives next door to me.

But the majority of this diary will be about 'A'.

Latest Entry

Anxiety increase

October 6, 2021
So my anxiety has been pretty bad. It obviously increased last year then got a little better around January and February of this year. Then by June it started up again. The last couple of weeks it has been practically every single day. Obviously if I get upset it will trigger but sometimes I can&...
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Recent Entries

  • Say the right thing
    October 5, 2021
    He says or rather he DOESN’T say things that really causes issues between us. When he should be saying the right or wrong thing he doesn’t say anything all. Which to me by not saying anything means I wouldn’t like his answer. I’m tired of this feeling. Tired of feeling not good enough. I’m tired&...
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  • Yesterday was meh
    October 4, 2021
    Yesterday I pretty much kept myself busy. Didn't want to think about last year but it was a constant thought. No worries I was good. I didn't bring it up and I definitely didn't lash out at him. I was feeling a bit under the weather and ended up crashing pretty early anyway. He and…
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  • Trying to deal
    October 3, 2021
    Trying to get by this weekend is harder than I thought it would be. The constant thought of what happened this time last year weighs heavily on my mind and my heart. I'm doing my best though. I haven't brought it up and I haven't lashed out. He knows this would be hard for me.…
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  • Today is just a reminder
    September 30, 2021
    So this morning he brought to my attention that today Is the day we started talking again 4 years ago. But after last year this is no longer our “anniversary”. He was talking to a girl (almost 20 years younger than him) behind my back. This time last year he could care less about our…
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  • New OD user
    September 30, 2021
    Ok I'm actually not new.i used to write in here years ago. Just needing a place to vent about my problems and my love life. I been on another diary platform but I'm so sick of the rude people and ads. Just hoping this place is better. I'm assuming it's ok to cuss in here…
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