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• 12/29/2012

  December 28, 2012

        1. What did you do in 2012that you'd never done before? Broke down in France!    2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Don't think I had any   3. Did anyone close to you give birth? No.    4. Did anyone clo...

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• Grown up

  November 30, 2012

  I didn't last very long at my regular updates did I?   I've managed to stay single since my breakup at new year. Its the longest I've been single for in a lot of years. Well at least without finding a bit of fun on the side at least! I haven't needed a man in…

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• Christmas Plans

  November 30, 2012

    My family has never celebrated a normal Christmas in the traditional English sense, well not since me and my brother were a lot younger. But we're both adults now, so the time has come to be really sensible.  Between the four of us (me, brother, mum and dad), we don't need anything fo...

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• Maybe it will help…

  February 9, 2012

  Well so much has happened in just over a year... I met a guy, fell in love and it all went spectacularly wrong! We broke up on New Years Day. And apparently, he's still not over me. The texts, stalking and comments from my friends say he's still hooked.  What an idiot! I need to learn&h...

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• Happy again

  August 28, 2010

  So things are definitely going better! I finished work on Friday with a call from Dave.  Went over to his and we drunk lots of vodka and had the most perfect night.  If I actually wanted a relationship with him, Friday would have just topped the bill.  We laughed, listened to ...

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• Tons better

  August 21, 2010

  Just finished girls night. Feel fab!  :D Mum's lent me £200 and bought me a shed load of fags so I'm sorted money wise for the rest of the month now.  That's a massive weight off my shoulders. Mum seems so much more sorted now too.  Which really helps.  She's decided to ...

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• Another Nightmare

  August 20, 2010

  Once again I've found myself having nightmares.  What a fucking crazy one this time. Dreamt that I was at my first house on H.. Drive.  I was with a lot of friends, who were my family.  Mum was dead and there was a woman, big fat, brunette with a wart, who was singing, (who wa...

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• Trying…

  August 19, 2010

  It's been so bloody hard.  I've got this big smile on my face trying to hide the tears.  It's killing me! I've planned a busy weekend so I don't get depressed, I can't lose it anymore. Going out for a meal with Warwick tonight.  He's my mate from school and scouts.&n...

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• Struggling

  August 18, 2010

  It's just getting worse.  I'm trying so hard to keep smiling, to keep up the pretence for my friends but I'm wilting. I've made two massive, basic mistakes at work.  Luckily, I was doing the checks, so managed to correct them so noone else knows, but I'm so cross with myself. It's ...

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