Recent Entries

• Being Single

  February 19, 2010

   For me Life Alone is like coming out the grocery store with many bags....   I need help caring them and can barely make it to my car but I try to keep going. I look around for help but all I see is other women who have help carrying their groceries because they have…

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• Vow

  December 21, 2009

  Today, December 22, 2009 I take a vow not to date starting January 1, 2010. I've been through so many disappointments, failures, struggles, etc dating the last 27 years of my life, I just want it all to end. I don't wanna think about it anymore, don't want to talk about it anymore, don't want&hel...

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• Saturday, Dec 19th 2009

  December 18, 2009

  Another Christmas approaching, still in the same place, still alone, God, if I could have one wish. But you already know my heart. You already know my pain, You already know what I long for the most. So why is that you keep it from me??? All I ask, from the deep down in my…

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• Subway

  November 21, 2009

  Today I came across this cute guy in Subway. I caught his eye, he caught mine. We both smiled. I had worked out this plan all in my head on how I was gonna approach him. I was with my fam and I was going to do it discretly. But my plan falied! I went outside…

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• Another Entry

  November 17, 2009

  I decided today to try something different and write about other aspects of my life besides the fact of how lonely, lost and empty I feel inside. Lets, see, Well, I finally got that SATC life I always wanted. I live in a faboulous loft in downtown Chicago. I have a marvelous view! When I…

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• I feel so alone

  November 7, 2009

  I feel so alone. I miss Kurtys alot. I miss anyone who showed me attention. I'm tryinging to be patient. Trying to wait on God. But this hurts so bad. I want to give up. I want to escape. I wish I could fix it. I wish I could fix me.

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• I want this last cry…

  October 3, 2009

  I want this last cry... and I don't want to cry about this again! I've cried so many times, prayed about it so many times. I just want this last cry, to cry about it, and not cry about it again. So if this situation arises again, I don't have to cry about it, because…

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• Howard Smith

  September 28, 2009

  I have another crush. Yeah, this is true. I've been feeling pretty good lately and it doesn't have a thing to do with the guy I am crushing on. Howard, I think the thing that made me like you is your spirit and the fact that you have a relationship with God. They day I…

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• Use Somebody

  September 13, 2009

  When I first heard this somg, I was first drawn to it because of the how the lead singer sings "Somebody" But then I actually listen  to the words and fell in love with it. The somg describes how I feel 99% of the time, I've been roaming around Always looking do...

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