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• Hope

  November 23, 2020

  Hope can be the best and the worst thing. Strap in...this is going to be a long one. He came over...which i will go on to, but first, my therapy session. We discussed what had happened (the break up) since the previous week, and then onto my relationship history. My therapist made a point of…

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• Gratitude

  November 23, 2020

  So, today I am going to try and focus on getting my shit done and being mindful of all of the things I have to be grateful for. First, let's address my feelings on him. So i don't have to dwell. I have not seen or heard from him. I thought i might see him…

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• The End

  November 20, 2020

  So, it has really happened. We are over. I'm devastated and relieved all at the same time. I love him...that feeling doesn't go straight away. He finally came over with my stuff. I let him know that by hanging onto it he'd be giving me an excuse to contact him, and i wanted to do…

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• Against my own souls warning

  November 19, 2020

  I feel mixed up. On the one hand I have almost convinced myself that we should not get back together. That i should stand strong. My boundaries were broken. If we get back together i'm effectively telling him that it's okay to do it again...cause i'll always stick around. I wish he would stay on&...

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• You muther fudging asshole

  November 17, 2020

  I hate him today! Today marks a week since i last saw him. I left his house under a gloomy cloud; literally and figuratively. Today marks three days since we last spoke and messaged on the phone. We left it with me messaging, apologizing for saying i'd not speak to him for a week, until…

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