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• 12/03/2011

  December 2, 2011

  I am so sad lately. I haven't worked out in like two weeks. I have been through so much crap over the last few weeks I don't even want to get out of bed. I haven't even felt like writing on here about the shit that has happened because it seems like I just allow history to kee...

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• Pedro In Onederland!

  November 23, 2011

  We had a great day today. We cooked dinner for my bestie, her boyfriend, his little brother, and my mother in law. We decided to do it in the evening instead of at lunch time. This allowed us all day to prepare and we didn't have to be up before dawn to get everything done…

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• Me Against The World

  November 21, 2011

  Ok maybe that is a little dramatic but it certainly feels that way this week. I am just so overwhelmed and you would think I would be used to it. Some might even say I ask for it. Hell it's only happened this EXACT same way a billion and one times before. I am just so beat down&hel...

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• Deep Dark Hole

  November 17, 2011

  I am so unmotivated to do anything the last couple of days. I am slowly sinking back down into that deep dark hole. It all just seems hopeless. I have gone from eating too much to hardly eating at all. I have eaten at around 5-700 calories a day all week. I don't know why...

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• adult friends

  November 15, 2011

  I seriously need to learn how to become friends with adults and not children with an adult age who want me to mother them. Seriously! I know that friendships are about leaning on each other and depending on soemone in a time of need, but who do I get to lean on? When do I get ...

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• Update on the sexy bod

  November 13, 2011

  Well, maybe that was false advertising. It's not sexy yet but I am determined that it will be. I am down to 204. Anything over 4 lbs and I will be at my mini goal for Thanksgiving goal. I have upped my cardio exercises from 30 minutes a day to an hour a day so I think I…

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• Feeling Great!

  November 5, 2011

  I have lost 24 lbs now. I have lost a total of 6.5 inches. I have so much energy and I can tell my moods are more in balance than they have been in a very long time. I really hope I can stay motivated to make this a lifelong change. I love my time at the gym. I really&hel...

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• Progress

  October 25, 2011

  I have officially lost 20 lbs!!! 20.6 to be exact. I want to lose 12 more by thanksgiving. However, I have had way too much sodium today. I am just trying to drink more water to flush it out without doing too much damage. (Not sure if that is how it works or not but…

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• The things people say

  October 24, 2011

  Ok, so just a quick entry to say I think I seriously just read an entry from someone admitting they have abused their mentally handicapped stepdaughter. Then her very next entry was about how she b*tched out another od member for saying children shouldn't be allowed at funerals. My thought on thi...

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