I use this place as an outlet to releave my thoughts that tend to tangle in my mind, like a pair of wired headphones that weren't put away properly. A bunch of scribbles. What I write is real in my life, I will stay anonymous.
I can only hope that what I write reaches the right person so they know they're not alone when it comes to battling past traumas and the mental illness(es) that come with it.

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Asset 5

First crack at poetry.

November 30, 2021
Who are you when the call ends? After clicking the red button placed meticulously on the screen. Do you sit in silence, with only the memory of the conversation playing back in your head? Do you move directly on to the next task scheduled for the day, not allowing yourself to process the conversa...
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Recent Entries

  • Asset 5
    Late night thoughts. tw.
    November 30, 2021
    Therapy is working. At least I think it is.. God, I hope it is. I went a week with out the thought of taking myself out. The intrusive memories and images have began to fade. I can't afford therapy but I need it. August was a hard month for my mental health. My husband doesn't…
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  • Thankful for Boxing 🥊
    November 24, 2021
    It is these gloves that carry every pain, every stress and every once of sadness that is kept inside me. With every punch anger, past rejection, self hatred pulses out of my body into these gloves and then onto whatever is standing in front of me in that moment. These are the gloves that make&hel...
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  • Early morning trauma dump, pt 4.
    November 16, 2021
    6:32am Final dump for a while. Like I mentioned in my last past, these memories play in my head like images or a short clip. Tonight has been a very active one for uninvited memories. My therapist told me to journal when I have memories from growing up that keep me from sleeping. This is…
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  • Early morning trauma dump, pt 3.
    November 16, 2021
    5:40am My therapist told me to journal when I have memories from growing up that keep me from sleeping. This is only a small bit of my childhood but it's the stuff that is keeping me up tonight for whatever reason. Memory 3. One of my foster brothers died when I was 18. Him and…
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  • Early morning trauma dump, pt 2.
    November 16, 2021
    4:46am My therapist told me to journal when I have memories from growing up that keep me from sleeping. This is only a small bit of my childhood but it's the stuff that is keeping me up tonight for whatever reason. Memory 2. I lost my virginity to my husband when I was 17. My…
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  • Early morning trauma dump.
    November 16, 2021
    3:40am My therapist told me to journal when I have memories from growing up that keep me from sleeping. This is only a small bit of my childhood but it's the stuff that is keeping me up tonight for whatever reason. Memory 1. When I was in elementary school I had a best friend who…
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  • My Second Therapy Session.
    November 9, 2021
    I'd like to write daily but sometimes I have so much in my mind if I were to write it down it wouldn't make any sense. I did my second therapy session yesterday. I went into it as my true authentic low energy self. The first session I put on so many fake smiles and…
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  • Not sure what I’m feeling.
    November 4, 2021
    I'm 28 years old and today my mom messaged me and 5 of my other siblings that her and my dad are separating. They've been together for 32 years. I received the text as I was pulling in to get my daughter from school. The first thing she wrote was,"I didn't want to text this…
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  • Asset 5
    this could be triggering for some. #trauma
    November 3, 2021
    he ran for the kite as the wind carefully carried it towards the busy highway. despite my screams he wouldn't stop running. in a panic i sprint back to the house. out of breath and terrified i could only spit out his name and a few key points, "bryson..bryson.. my kite... highway.." i gasp for&he...
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