Recent Entries

• Dozen

  December 31, 2013

  I've been reading a bit about my favorite BBW model lately. I know I have written about her in my diary before. Mandy Blake. She is a lovely beautiful woman and even though I am attracted to men there is something about her that is very appealing. She has several websites about various things but...

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• Food and Scat

  September 20, 2013

  I hadn't seen my feeder/scat friend in many weeks and then he texted me yesterday while I was at work.  The text just said "how much do you weigh now?"  I don't really share my actual weight with too many people and for him to just come out and ask like that kind of turned&hel...

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• Bigger

  August 11, 2013

  Not much to write about lately.  I am definitely starting to see results from the hormones.  Hard to say if my breasts have grown at all since I already have large breasts just from being obese.  However, there have been plenty of changes to my nipples.  They are bigger and mu...

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• Highest ever

  June 21, 2013

  It's funny to me how in the fat acceptance community as a group we are very careful never to talk about our specific weights.  The philosophy of the movement is that our weights are just a number and shouldn't define us.  However, individually we talk about our weight quite a bit, and i...

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• Go first

  May 30, 2013

  My therapist OK'ed me to start with hormone replacement therapy about a month ago.  I wasn't overly enthusiastic about it because I think the main reason transwomen take hormones is to develop breasts.  I already have breasts.  It's true that the reason I have breasts is because I ...

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• And sucked

  May 17, 2013

  Last weekend when the weather was hot and wonderful the local fat acceptance group got together on the beach in Coronado.  It was planned well in advance so we got really lucky that the weather was so perfect.  Today the high temperature is 68 so it wouldn't have gone so well one week l...

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• Him

  April 3, 2013

  Because I know my ex-partner is very involved in the fetish community, I saw him recently and asked what he knew about feederism.  I think most people have never heard of it.  He, of course, knew all about it.  And his first question to was the obvious one about whether my recent w...

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• Good part

  March 29, 2013

  I was a litter nervous to mention to anyone in the fat acceptance group about my new feeder relationship because I had read online that the community had mixed feelings abut feederism.  Some people thought it was a good part of fat acceptance and some people thought that it had no place in t...

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• Feeder

  March 19, 2013

  I've been spending a lot more time with the guy I have been calling my scat friend.  I'm hesitant to call him that anymore since our relationship has gotten more serious and scat play really is just a small part of it. One of the reasons we are hitting it off these days is that…

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