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• Last day of July. Weird.

  July 31, 2023

  It's the last day of July. I've spoken to Lexi one time since we broke up. I will be seeing her today to exchange things of ours. I am sick to my stomach, but also excited to see her. I hope I don't say something stupid. I really want to talk to her and ask…

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• 06/21/23, The weird and unusual month of June

  June 21, 2023

  Man, what a weird, weird month it has been. This month started normal, really no complaints. I thought that everything was perfect, me and Lexi were at a really great place in our relationship, we had just gone on a beautiful date to the beach and enjoyed the crystal blue water and some romantic ...

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• 04/26/2023

  April 26, 2023

  Life is pretty good. Going to New York with clay next week, really excited! Work is good, I'm good. I'm a paramedic now!

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• Working 9/28/22

  September 28, 2022

  Working my ass off, enjoying life.

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• 8/13

  August 13, 2022

  Still think about you a lot, but it hurts less. Adios

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• Moving on 7/13

  July 14, 2022

  Today we actually had a talk about getting married in the future. Right now we are broken up. We have both slept with other people. Things are forever different. I wasn't lying when I told you I would marry you, but right now is time to work on me. Losing the weight finally, investing in…

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• 7/10

  July 11, 2022

  Oh but being away from you is so heartbreaking. I miss you. I wonder what you're doing. I miss everything. I miss how I was able to so vulnerably fawn over you and you never betrayed my trust or vulnerability. I wish we were meant to last forever. Being apart is so, so hard. I…

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• 5/7/22 I’m glad to be me

  May 7, 2022

  I’m writing this at 4am at the firehouse I currently work at. It’s dark, everyone is asleep and I should be trying to sleep, but here I am. The night is so silent, but there is a beautiful breeze that sweeps through the bay every couple of seconds. I feel so tumultuous in my own…

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• I love you

  November 2, 2021

  I love you dearly The space between my heart and yours bends and quakes with an aching emptiness I want to be held in the tight embrace of generational love once more In this pit of loneliness I hope that one day I can look up against a bright sun to see the outline of…

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