About me:
I am unfiltered, sarcastic, quick witted, harsh with my tongue, and while those qualities make me less desirable, I love just as hard. I'm soft spoken, I'm reserved, I'm quick to defend.

About my "diary":
She's a messy one. There will be no structure. If you struggle with control; this is not the place for you. If you enjoy a good, messy, soap opera of sorts - then grab your favorite beverage and sit back - you're in for a wild, and hopefully enjoyable ride.

Why now:
I'm hoping to heal and rebuild from infidelity. No reason to hide the elephant in the room. I am the "victim" of infidelity; and writing is my peace, it is my safe space, its non-judgemental, its raw.

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If you are someone that is following from my social media platforms:
1. If you choose to screenshot or share - by all means please do. If you think that these hard conversations/situations are not occuring in home first......

2. There will always be a disclaimer - be sure to include it with the sharing. As with any situation there are 3 (or more) sides to every situation and in this case you are hearing/reading one side - mine. No one else's matters to me.

Latest Entry

Acquainted – The Weekend

April 11, 2025
You sent her this song.  Followed by a slew of messages talking about how you never wanted to leave her - she didn't want to let you go.  The last time you sent me a song.... I honestly can't remember, maybe never? I know you have come home to play something on YouTube, but to…
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Recent Entries

  • Everybody Plays the Fool
    April 10, 2025
    🎶 Falling in love is such an easy thing to do And there's no guarantee that the one you love Is gonna love you 🎶 I swear this is literally the soundtrack of my mind..."Everybody Plays the Fool" - you know the song from maybe the late 80's, early 90's? Welp that's what is replaying…
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  • Shower Confessions
    March 29, 2025
    💭 Keep in mind these are thoughts that race through my mind when I'm alone, its quiet and I'm in the shower - hence - "Shower Confessions". _______________________________________________   💭 Facebook Post Idea: Someone convince me NOT to text the whore - I know I should let things go. But s...
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  • A Queen Needs a “King” for Checkmate
    March 29, 2025
    I wish I could pin this post for easy reference - but here are the essentials in this game.
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  • Cyclone of Bullshit
    March 28, 2025
    Within 24 hours of your affair being exposed you "promised" me that you were 100% in it, that you were going to try and give 100% to our relationship. It was you that wanted to fix the relationship and stay together. It was you that wanted to stay together, forgive and "forget". It was you…
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  • A Playlist for the Exs
    March 28, 2025
    Without explanation one song dedicated to all of my exs. Note I had my first boyfriend in 1995 - my grade school sweetheart, who I did try and rekindle things with during high school. It didn't work - we were always in two different spaces. Also note my high school sweetheart I too tried to…
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  • Asset 5
    Remember When…..
    March 28, 2025
    Do you remember when we met? I do - it was briefly in 2001, little did I know that the chance meeting would be my future.... I was living in the dorms at EMU, you had come up with my boyfriend to party at the college level.  We were introduced and you weren't thought of…
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  • Asset 5
    Love the Way You Lie
    March 25, 2025
    Never ever did I think that I would say I could relate to Eminem. YouTube decided I was in a place to feel my anger, my hurt, my betrayal. It teased me with Eminem's "Love the Way You Lie". I was taken a back, I replayed the song only the lyrical version. As the lyrics…
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  • Untitled Since 2002
    March 25, 2025
    I've mentioned briefly that I'm an OG open diary writer I've also mentioned my desire to be an author.... I SO badly want to be a published writer. So much so that in 2002, I had a title for a novel - little did I know it would take 23 years to come to life.…
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  • Asset 5
    Time Heals
    March 24, 2025
    They say time heals all wounds.... but what is the time frame? I feel like I am slowly moving forward, I can't wrap my head around the fact that its already been a month; 30 days have passed. I feel like you - you think things are fine. I honestly have felt like the night…
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