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• Social Media Detox?

  March 31, 2024

  I'm depressed, like really fucking depressed. I know that I've been depressed for a while, but the past few months it has hit a new low. I've always been able to just push through and do the things and inadvertently I seem to just have become numb to...everything. I started taking antidepressants...

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• Rant

  March 11, 2024

  Feeling the need to rant - not that it will help anything at all, but maybe it'll make me feel better to scream into the void a little. I've been going to online school for a while now, I started shortly after Sam's death in an attempt to keep myself busy. Surprise, surprise I didn't…

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• If I stay busy I won’t be sad, right?

  January 7, 2024

  It's been awhile since I've taken the time to sit down and process my thoughts and feelings through my diary, but my therapist recommended I take some time to do that as I approach the anniversary of losing Sam so here I am... 1/31/24 will mark 3 years of life without my son.  I spend…

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• &&Let it all go…

  March 27, 2018

  Some things change, but some thing never do. Work stresses me out. That hasn't changed much over the years. Same job, different city, same bullshit employees that want to make excuses instead of doing their job. Honestly, most days I feel more like a baby sitter than a manager. I currently have t...

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• And I’m marching on to the beat I drum

  March 26, 2018

  So... OD is back? Mixed feelings!! I slowly faded from OD back in 2012 before it shut down. I was a little heart broken to know I had lost everything in it...but relieved to not go down that rabbit hole again reading the insanity that was my life. Alas, I was just told yesterday about…

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• Surprises.

  November 18, 2012

  It's weird how I think I've gotten used to him and the way he treats me and then out of left field he does or says something that puts me to tears. Oddly, in a good way though. I swear. I've never had this kind of support before. I've never had someone there backing me…

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• How do you tell your sister no?

  October 1, 2012

  *Sigh* I don't know what to do. My sister just called me saying she was evicted from the house she was renting in Florida. She then asked if it would be possible to come stay with me... she has two kids, one on the way and....she is an absolute pain in my ass. I can't…

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• This is the end of the line,

  August 14, 2012

  Thank you for coming along. So much has been going on lately...*sigh*. Its all quite depressing. My sister is six months preggo, not sure if I mentioned that before... *shrugs*. Anyhow, she might have cervical cancer. Waiting on test results to come back...think today was the day for that. Guess ...

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• New ink.

  July 8, 2012

  Not sure if this will work or not because I'm doing it from my phone but going to try to put up a picture of my new ink. Its just the first sitting so its unfinished but it's still pretty sweet. Ah! There's so much to write. But on my phone its just all too…

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