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• Today’s appointment

  January 14, 2014

  Well, it wasn't that bad. The beginning was a little sucky, as we had to discuss the miscarriage. If it had been a drinking game and we had to take a shot each time he said the word "miscarriage".......well, we would have dropped dead of alcohol poisoning early on. It was his somber, re...

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• Today’s appointment *update*

  January 14, 2014

  Well, it wasn't that bad. The beginning was a little sucky, as we had to discuss the miscarriage. If it had been a drinking game and we had to take a shot each time he said the word "miscarriage".......well, we would have dropped dead of alcohol poisoning early on. It was his somber, re...

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• Moving along

  January 10, 2014

  Well, finally talked to the doctor briefly. I guess we have to sit down and talk about my miscarriage now. Boo. I'll do some labs while there I assume. I hope we can accomplish  more with the talk than just talk about the miscarriage. As horrific as it was at first, and as fucked up…

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• IVF

  January 4, 2014

  I have not had a conversation with my doctor yet. My HCG is down to zero, now I just have to call him back and have the "what next" talk. After doing an injectable cycle, I cannot tell you how less scary IVF is. Sure the egg retrieval sounds a little intimidating, but I'll be drugg...

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• 2013…bite me

  December 30, 2013

  So...Officially 2012 and 2013 can BITE MY ASS! A big fat FUCK YOU, you punk ass mother fuckers! I find comfort in profanity. I think my turning point has been going outside a few nights ago and just lashing out at the stars. I really don't know what I was lashing out at, the univer...

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• The silver lining?

  November 1, 2013

  For all the haters of "Obama care" I have fallen head over heels in love with it. Yes your rates might have gone up, mine did too. BUT......I will get FERTILITY COVERAGE!!!! Up to $20,000! There are only 13 states that mandate coverage for fertility, my state is NOT one of them, so...

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• irritable

  September 1, 2013

  Ever been so irritable you can barely stand to be around yourself. It's bad. I can't stand the Gent right now, can't stand the dog right now, the heat is pissing me off, everything. I should have just started the Wellbutrin and not listened to that pharmacy fucktard. I am in such a bad place…

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• TGIF

  August 23, 2013

  For real....TGIF.  I don't know what else to say, so glad this week is over. The best part....I'm out of management on Sept 1st!!!!!!!!!!! Until Next time later

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• In general

  August 17, 2013

  I'm sad. It's a hard feeling for me. Feeling intermittently tearful with no seeming control over it. Finding yourself crying at dumb shit, realizing you maybe need to stay secluded for a little bit longer. I have yet to let it go. Just random tearful moments. I just need to get out into the woods...

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