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fever dream

November 16, 2013
it's like that, an absent blur. i tried so hard putting the bad behind me that i don't even want to recall the good anymore. convinced myself that there wasn't much to retrieve. but the bad is still there. i still get dark in my eyes, in my mind. it's just my unique trigger, i…
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