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• I thought it must have been deleted!

  January 17, 2012

  I really thought my diary must have been deleted. It's been years and years and years since I was here. I thought of it because I am setting up a blog, and was telling a colleague at work how I used to use an online diary site, "Which I suppose made me something of a...

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• Beatific

  March 20, 2008

  Funny how normally I want to be so manic, and yet since becoming pregnant I find myself wanting to be peaceful so much. (Funny also how I find myself questioning the first part of that sentence: do I really want to be manic all the time? Do I actually enjoy it? Or am I just…

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• Alive and kicking

  February 24, 2008

  For ages now Jack has been desperate - I mean desperate - to be able to feel the baby move. When I first thought I could feel it moving about, he was obviously gagging to be able to share the experience. I would pause thoughtfully, occasionally, and say vaguely, "I wonder if that's the baby&...

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• Seeing your face

  February 19, 2008

  I almost know my way around by now. I say 'almost' because my lack of sense of direction is such that I don't totally confidently know my way around my own house. But we have been to the hospital now for our dating scan, for a midwife booking-in appointment, and for a blood test, so…

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• The second pink line

  October 20, 2007

  A week ... away from home, leaving on Wednesday to host four events over three days, then to stay with my aunt and uncle (who happen to live very close to where the events were held, in the South-West), then straight to my parents' for the weekend, for a family party. A month ... where ...

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• Convalescent

  July 8, 2007

  "Perhaps you should go to the doctor?" suggested my colleagues."Nope!" I said, bracingly. "It's just a virus. The doctor would laugh in my face! I can't take antibiotics for a virus! That's ridiculous! This is just a cold! People who request antibiotics for colds are cret...

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• Gym bunny

  April 13, 2007

  All these years I was labouring under the misapprehension that I hated exercise.Turns out what I really hated was exercising in ugly places. So I joined a gym. It's not my first gym. I joined a gym just down the road from work a while back. I think my attendance there could be described as…

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• …as a bat

  March 13, 2007

  "And the next one?"I paused. "Erm....?"The woman made encouraging noises to me. "The next shape? Can you tell me what it is?"I wrinkled up my nose. "Er... I don't know." I was seven years old. Sitting in the medical room at my Primary School, more commonly ...

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• Throwing darts in the dark

  February 11, 2007

  When I was younger, pregnancy seemed like an inevitability. In fact, more than that. Particularly when I was a teenager, the rather frightening world-view peddled by my mother, my school, and Just 17 was that pregnancy was an explosion waiting to happen. As though not being pregnant was a biologi...

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