Recent Entries

• Satellites (How We Orbit).

  November 22, 2011

  Winter is here. I take in my first snowfall with the drag of a cigarette. It's tradition. The hot, toxic, blue smoke mixes with the coldest air of the year inside my weathered, disgusting, blackened lungs in such a way that I come back for more every 12 months.  My lungs are filled with smok...

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• Hair.

  November 13, 2011

  My hair is getting long again. I cut it back in July and now it is approaching my chin. The dye has faded to a kind of weird, reddy-blond colour, and I can see the roots of my actual hue again. It's a lot darker than I remember! I'm getting a few more greys as…

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• Fall (memoriah)

  October 31, 2011

  I joined a band. I am playing bass and singing (and driving the van!) with people who are currently more successful than I ever got on my own. I don't know why I didn't think about this move before. I am striving closer and closer to realizing my personal artistic ambition(s). My vision of how&he...

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• Unfinished (as of tonight) Songs

  June 14, 2011

  "Untitled 2011 #1" i saw you there; i cut your hair your simple stare in the mirror you closed the door; the 7th floor so i hummed my tune a bit clearer ------------------------------------------------------ "the Choice" i thought that you might still love me that your soul co...

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• Sober Vance?

  May 18, 2011

  Two and a half months ago I woke up on a bathroom floor in a house I'd never been to before with only my boxers on after overdosing on a heady mix of 80mg of OxyContin, 3 street ecstasy pills containing god-knows what, 400mg of pure methylenedioxymethamphetamine, many shots of rum and 4-6 grams o...

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• just like starting over

  December 13, 2010

  I'm writing you again; a lot has changed. I turned 26. I fell into what I thought was love but may have been, in the end, just a shared and mutual distaste for solitude. We were good friends, for a time, though. We had a dog and an apartment downtown. I would come home from…

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• Easy, large

  August 1, 2009

  Stolen from Joe!! Kissed any one of your OD friends? No Been arrested? Yes Kissed someone you didn't like? No Slept in until 5 PM? Yes Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes Held a snake? Yes Ran a red light? Yes Been suspended from school? No Experienced love at first sight? Yes Totaled your car in&h...

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• Día de los Muertos.

  January 13, 2009

  It is a dark carnival. They climb out of the graves we dug for them and dance through the streets on nylon strings as the skeletons chatter en espanol that today belongs to them and we are the quaint, quiet observers. Day of the Dead. We whisper like lovers through calavera masks, following what ...

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• Sleepwalker.

  January 10, 2009

  Sometimes I hope for all our sakes that we're really fast asleep and when we die it's just us waking up, as if from some strange dream. Then, blinking, we go about our days as they mature into years and before we know it a life time's passed, but it's just another chance. Like the…

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